I'm finally doing it!
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I'm finally doing it!
I've been sober for 30 days! I still can't believe it! At 35 years old, this is the longest that I've gone in my adult life without a drink.
I first started drinking when I was 19, and by the time I was 20, I was drinking every day... a lot, and that's pretty much been my life for the last 15 years.
I have tried to kick it a few times over the years. About 10 years ago I made it 11 days after a terrifying blackout, and about 5 years ago I lasted 6 days. Aside from that, I was never able to last more than 2 or 3 days. I had decided for a while that I was a lost cause. Other people could get sober, but I just wasn't one of them. I didn't have the willpower.
Finally a few months ago I decided I'd had enough. Every day, I would tell myself "this is it", but it seemed like I was drinking more and more. Some nights I was even scared to go to sleep, because I had drank so much, I was afraid I wouldn't wake up. My life was just getting worse and worse... I didn't even know that was possible, oh but it was!
On January 9th this year, I had enough. I was sick of everything. Tired of making a fool of myself. Tired of going to work hungover, wondering if people could smell it on me, and wondering how I would make it through the day. Tired of planning my life around alcohol, and wondering when it was going to kill me.
So I took all the liquor I had in the house and flushed it down the toilet, and somehow, I've been able to resist buying more for an entire MONTH now! It hasn't been easy. The first week was like a bad nightmare. I came really close to giving in almost every day in that first week, but I didn't. If I made it through that, I can make it, period. I don't ever want to go through that again.
I have found a lot of encouragement here, even though I've been more of a lurker than a poster... I'm gonna try to change that moving forward.
I first started drinking when I was 19, and by the time I was 20, I was drinking every day... a lot, and that's pretty much been my life for the last 15 years.
I have tried to kick it a few times over the years. About 10 years ago I made it 11 days after a terrifying blackout, and about 5 years ago I lasted 6 days. Aside from that, I was never able to last more than 2 or 3 days. I had decided for a while that I was a lost cause. Other people could get sober, but I just wasn't one of them. I didn't have the willpower.
Finally a few months ago I decided I'd had enough. Every day, I would tell myself "this is it", but it seemed like I was drinking more and more. Some nights I was even scared to go to sleep, because I had drank so much, I was afraid I wouldn't wake up. My life was just getting worse and worse... I didn't even know that was possible, oh but it was!
On January 9th this year, I had enough. I was sick of everything. Tired of making a fool of myself. Tired of going to work hungover, wondering if people could smell it on me, and wondering how I would make it through the day. Tired of planning my life around alcohol, and wondering when it was going to kill me.
So I took all the liquor I had in the house and flushed it down the toilet, and somehow, I've been able to resist buying more for an entire MONTH now! It hasn't been easy. The first week was like a bad nightmare. I came really close to giving in almost every day in that first week, but I didn't. If I made it through that, I can make it, period. I don't ever want to go through that again.
I have found a lot of encouragement here, even though I've been more of a lurker than a poster... I'm gonna try to change that moving forward.
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Welcome to SR JoeZee! This is an awesome place of people who get what it's like to get and stay sober. It is possible for you! Congrats on 30 days!
How are you doing it this time as compared to the other few times? What is your plan for the next 30 and so on?
K
How are you doing it this time as compared to the other few times? What is your plan for the next 30 and so on?
K
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A month is amazing. It keeps getting better.
On a side note, what you wrote about work really spoke to me. I think there is no greater hell than going to work hungover and wondering how in the hell you are going to get through the day.
On a side note, what you wrote about work really spoke to me. I think there is no greater hell than going to work hungover and wondering how in the hell you are going to get through the day.
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Originally Posted by MelindaFlowers 
On a side note, what you wrote about work really spoke to me. I think there is no greater hell than going to work hungover and wondering how in the hell you are going to get through the day.
Congrats on 30 days joe. Hope it gets better from here!
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"I never want to go through that again," is one of the things I say to myself quite often, and it's gotten me past cravings or thoughts that I could drink again.
Recovery gets easier, not harder - stick with it.
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Recovery gets easier, not harder - stick with it.
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