122 days
Dopeless Hope Fiend
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Join Date: Nov 2014
Location: Albany, New York.
Posts: 76
122 days
First off I'm greatful for the rooms and the support I've had thru these last 4 months. Its taken me a long time to be comfortable even saying the word greatful. I've been so self absorbed.Even thinking about being greatful for anything besides self would make me cringe.
I started practicing steps and taking suggestions. They work fur reals! That first step has helped me gain access to self thru some simple yet powerful spiritual principles.
Honesty : admitting the truth about my addiction. Telling the truth to myself about myself.
Open mindedness: being ready to believe that there just might be another way to recover. Not just my old ways of thinking.
Willingness: Taking ANY action that will help me in my recovery.
I'm still having a lil trouble with talking about things in meetings. I being told I'm not fully surrendering. I'm making progress
I have to continue to stay humble. I have to accept who I am as an addict and know that I am just human, be honest and through and know I can't do this on my own.
I have to come to terms with my addiction and my recovery, let go of fears and be able to make changes.
After having these improvements why go back to such unhealthy conditions? Why manipulate the truth?
This disease is skillful and crafty. It speaks to me in my own voice, trying complete what it was set out to do. Destroy spirit!
I know my disease is active when: I'm unmanageable, when I find myself having reservations, when I try to exert control over things I have no control over and when I'm being obsessive.
I started practicing steps and taking suggestions. They work fur reals! That first step has helped me gain access to self thru some simple yet powerful spiritual principles.
Honesty : admitting the truth about my addiction. Telling the truth to myself about myself.
Open mindedness: being ready to believe that there just might be another way to recover. Not just my old ways of thinking.
Willingness: Taking ANY action that will help me in my recovery.
I'm still having a lil trouble with talking about things in meetings. I being told I'm not fully surrendering. I'm making progress
I have to continue to stay humble. I have to accept who I am as an addict and know that I am just human, be honest and through and know I can't do this on my own.
I have to come to terms with my addiction and my recovery, let go of fears and be able to make changes.
After having these improvements why go back to such unhealthy conditions? Why manipulate the truth?
This disease is skillful and crafty. It speaks to me in my own voice, trying complete what it was set out to do. Destroy spirit!
I know my disease is active when: I'm unmanageable, when I find myself having reservations, when I try to exert control over things I have no control over and when I'm being obsessive.
~sb
Join Date: Jul 2011
Location: MD
Posts: 15,967
congrats!
I suggest talking with your sponsor and close network about things more deeply and in a general way, share your experience, strength and hope in a meeting and talk about how the steps work in your life....it's not a group therapy meeting!
I suggest talking with your sponsor and close network about things more deeply and in a general way, share your experience, strength and hope in a meeting and talk about how the steps work in your life....it's not a group therapy meeting!
Dopeless Hope Fiend
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Join Date: Nov 2014
Location: Albany, New York.
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Originally Posted by sugarbear1 
congrats!
I suggest talking with your sponsor and close network about things more deeply and in a general way, share your experience, strength and hope in a meeting and talk about how the steps work in your life....it's not a group therapy meeting!
I suggest talking with your sponsor and close network about things more deeply and in a general way, share your experience, strength and hope in a meeting and talk about how the steps work in your life....it's not a group therapy meeting!
could you elaborate a little on what you mean by this? Trying to get a better under standing of what your trying to say. Again thanks
Dopeless Hope Fiend
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Join Date: Nov 2014
Location: Albany, New York.
Posts: 76
Thanks a lot guys! I have developed quite a bit of trust in areas that I thought I would ever. Im getting back the things that mean most. Now I've done this before. Got back everything and was like well I got it all back in cured. I don't need help anymore. And went right back to the BS. I'm done I will not do anything to alter my mind
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