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Hello everyone,
Well, afters years of abnormal drinking I have finally ended up here. I knew this day would come eventually, where I finally admit to myself that I can't keep drinking.
In a way I am relieved that I've finally made the decision but I'm also sad because the events leading up to me making the decision are some that I seriously regret.
So - any advice? Where to begin? I kind of want to dig myself a hole and hide for about 100 years.
Well, afters years of abnormal drinking I have finally ended up here. I knew this day would come eventually, where I finally admit to myself that I can't keep drinking.
In a way I am relieved that I've finally made the decision but I'm also sad because the events leading up to me making the decision are some that I seriously regret.
So - any advice? Where to begin? I kind of want to dig myself a hole and hide for about 100 years.
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Hi kg, I'm Day 9 and found that I just read through the posts and took advice from the messages of others. It's amazing actually how much alike all our stories are when you get down to it. Writing stuff down and getting feelings out is so easy on here. Good Luck to you, Be strong
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Welcome to the family, Kg 
And well done on making the choice to stop the madness of drinking.
There is wonderful advice, info and support here, read around a bit and you' ll find lot of encouragement and similarities in other people's stories.
And well done on making the choice to stop the madness of drinking.
There is wonderful advice, info and support here, read around a bit and you' ll find lot of encouragement and similarities in other people's stories.
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Welcome to SR. When I quit drinking I hung out here a lot. I read, posted and visited the chat room. For me the first week was the hardest, but the longer you go the easier it gets. I am glad you are here. Quitting drinking is one of the smartest things you will ever do.
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Thank you so much to everybody. I have a feeling that this forum is what will get me through today. I'm feeling so much embarrassment, guilt, and shame. I've dabbled with quitting drinking here and there - for Lent in 2011, for a couple months here and there, for 4 months starting last January. But in the end I'd always managed to convince myself that I could be stronger than the pull the alcohol had on me - I was dead wrong. Teebee, what you said to defend against is exactly what has gotten me in the past when I've tried to quit - I'd convince myself that I could have one or two drinks and stop. And actually, most of the time, I can. But not always. And when I do find myself unable to stop, I'm waking up the next day to find out the insane things I said or did that threaten my friendships, my relationship, and my livelihood. I've finally accepted the fact that I just do not know what will happen or be able to control myself once I've put a single drink into my body.
Sorry for the word explosion. I've really never been able to just say this out loud before.
Sorry for the word explosion. I've really never been able to just say this out loud before.
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At some point in my drinking, the alcohol quit working for me.
Only thing left was the mess I had created.
I got sober, got out of the mess I was in. I now have a better job, I'm debt free, got a better relationship with my family, I've made new sober friends and numerous years of serenity now
Only thing left was the mess I had created.
I got sober, got out of the mess I was in. I now have a better job, I'm debt free, got a better relationship with my family, I've made new sober friends and numerous years of serenity now
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Hi KG,
I'm new too and have the same exact feelings you described. I went to an AA meeting and I didn't want to go but glad I did. It empowers you because you see hope and a solution. They told me one day at a time or sometimes 5 minutes at a time. But you don't have to live this lifestyle anymore and neither do I! Just know your not alone!
ONE DAY AT A TIME!
I'm new too and have the same exact feelings you described. I went to an AA meeting and I didn't want to go but glad I did. It empowers you because you see hope and a solution. They told me one day at a time or sometimes 5 minutes at a time. But you don't have to live this lifestyle anymore and neither do I! Just know your not alone!
ONE DAY AT A TIME!
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hi Kg,
wanting to hide for 100years...sure, but that will only feed the negative.
showing up here, putting stuff out into the light of day has much better chance of helping with your decision.
drink lots of water. take it easy on yourself right now as far as expectations and "fixing things".
just look around, check out different forums, or go to a meeting (depending on where you live, you'll have lots of options of approaches. or not), don't drink, share your thoughts and worries, see what others are doing here that's really helpful to them and if that might be right for you.
stick around.
wanting to hide for 100years...sure, but that will only feed the negative.
showing up here, putting stuff out into the light of day has much better chance of helping with your decision.
drink lots of water. take it easy on yourself right now as far as expectations and "fixing things".
just look around, check out different forums, or go to a meeting (depending on where you live, you'll have lots of options of approaches. or not), don't drink, share your thoughts and worries, see what others are doing here that's really helpful to them and if that might be right for you.
stick around.
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