Saved by milestones
Saved by milestones
Last night I had a knockdown drag out fight with my AV. I had to go out grocery shopping and the whole time I kept thinking that I should stop on the way home and get a bottle of vodka. I was only 6 days sober and in the grand scheme of eternity that's not much. So it's not like I'd be flushing a huge chunk of sobriety down the toilet.
Idling at a red light (right next to the parking lot for one of the liquor stores I used to hit, all I had to do was turn in) I tried a new approach. I have read on a couple of threads here about taking 30 days. Usually this is directed to people who say they want to moderate, "take 30 days sobriety and see how you feel."
I thought, "okay, I'm 20% of the way to 30 days. Do you really want to start at 0%?" Yeah, sometimes I think in percentages.
I drove home and stuffed my face, splitting my time between SR and netflix.
Today I have a full week sobriety under my belt. I'm glad for that.
I do try to take things one day at a time, just don't drink today. But last night I found that looking forward to a milestone really helped me to keep it together.
So, that's my thought for the day: milestones.
Idling at a red light (right next to the parking lot for one of the liquor stores I used to hit, all I had to do was turn in) I tried a new approach. I have read on a couple of threads here about taking 30 days. Usually this is directed to people who say they want to moderate, "take 30 days sobriety and see how you feel."
I thought, "okay, I'm 20% of the way to 30 days. Do you really want to start at 0%?" Yeah, sometimes I think in percentages.
I drove home and stuffed my face, splitting my time between SR and netflix.
Today I have a full week sobriety under my belt. I'm glad for that.
I do try to take things one day at a time, just don't drink today. But last night I found that looking forward to a milestone really helped me to keep it together.
So, that's my thought for the day: milestones.
That is awesome! Honestly, in the beginning of my sobriety, I couldn't think in terms of forever either. It did help to set a goal of 90 days and then reevaluate. Sobriety just kept getting better and better that I just kept pushing my goal dates out. I am over 15 months sober now and forever doesn't seem daunting at all . . .
Thanks for the support everybody! Yeah, I'll keep upping the ante. I can't imagine hitting 30 days and then saying "Well, that's enough of that!" I'm hoping that 30 days is enough time that it will in itself be a deterrent. Why would I want to start over when I've made it that far?
Of course, I'm getting ahead of myself. Day 9, here I come!
Of course, I'm getting ahead of myself. Day 9, here I come!
Congrats SDH on one week
I just hit 30 days today and although it was a little bumpy along the way I feel like things are starting to get better. I just set another goal and will keep plugging away on this journey. Let's keep going !!
I just hit 30 days today and although it was a little bumpy along the way I feel like things are starting to get better. I just set another goal and will keep plugging away on this journey. Let's keep going !!
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