SandyLovesFall

Hi everyone, I hope your days are going well. My day is going good. Went to church, then to lunch with hubby, then came home did a few arts and crafts, some laundry, and now I'm here. I'm coming back (again) after being out of sobriety for a few weeks. I foolishly think that because I only drink on the weekends that I can handle beer. I don't handle it...it handles me. Sometimes it let's me feel in control and I stop after a couple, but more times than not it reminds me who is really in control.....and it's not me.

I feel so wonderful when I don't drink that I'm flabbergasted as to why I keep putting my hand back into the fire (aka ice chest). Today is a new day and a new chance to stay sober and live the life I want to live. My last beer was at 5:00 p.m. yesterday. I hope and pray that was my last beer/alcohol ever.

PurpleKnight

Welcome back Sandy!!

I really needed to accept that myself and alcohol needed to part ways on a permanent basis, and put the right plan in place to make it happen, are you doing things on sheer willpower? as I needed support for the times that my mind tried to convince me drinking might be a good idea or when I would forget my commitment a few weeks later.

You can do this, tweak your plan, and go at things again!!

SandyLovesFall

Hi Purpleknight I'm doing this very much alone. My family friends and even my husband don't think that I'm an alcoholic or even that I have a drinking problem because I spend most of my time drinking trying to act sober. I know I have a problem and I know that I cannot have the 1st drink. Thank goodness for you and the other people at SR.

Anna

Welcome back, Sandy!

Stay focused on your goal and you will be able to do this.

SandyLovesFall

Thanks Anna. I'm glad SR doesn't give up on people like me.

Aiko

Dear SandyLovesFall,

You can do it we all support you even if we are not physically next to you!
Just change your habits, change the centre of your life, do things you always wanted to do, instead of thinking 24x7 in Alcohol, think of projects and be alive.
Do sports, join classes of cake baking, never ending list,...
And if you need extra support maybe go to AA or other support centre!

It gets easier with time and one day it will not bother you any more
as your life is full!!!

Keep coming here any time you need, big hug XO

SandyLovesFall

Thanks Aiko. I actually think that I am going to try and find a harmonica playing class. I have always loved the harmonica. I think it's time to really learn how to play.

Soberwolf

Good luck

Dee74

Welcome back Sandy

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SandyLovesFall

Thanks soberwolf and dee74

Hevyn

Hey Sandy. I'm so glad you came back to give it another go.

I was a slow learner too. It took having a complete meltdown to stop me. It doesn't need to come to that. You can do this!

Hereandnow2

I had a ver similar experience with no one thinking I had a problem. I had to stop trying to Convince others that I had a problem and just tell people I'm not drinking anymore, and please support me in this because it's important to me.