Back from a binge
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Back from a binge
Four days of drinking. Sorry ive let you guys down. All started with one beer at a restaurant. I knew i shouldnt have had it. Just like turning on a switch. Day one again.
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Welcome back. Glad you made it, some don't.
You've only let yourself down and that's reversible by not drinking.
Remember what led up to it, and how you feel now and remember you never have to feel this way again.
I let myself down so many times I couldn't count them. One drink and I was off. Then the guilt, remorse and anxiety.
I felt I let other people down as well. When it was only myself and my brain was misfired into thinking I'd never do it again. But that proved to be untrue. I did it again and again.
I now think I don't have another drunk in me. Three years eight months sober today.
If I took that first drink, I'd be back to the drunken me in a wink.
Best to you and don't be too hard on yourself.
You've only let yourself down and that's reversible by not drinking.
Remember what led up to it, and how you feel now and remember you never have to feel this way again.
I let myself down so many times I couldn't count them. One drink and I was off. Then the guilt, remorse and anxiety.
I felt I let other people down as well. When it was only myself and my brain was misfired into thinking I'd never do it again. But that proved to be untrue. I did it again and again.
I now think I don't have another drunk in me. Three years eight months sober today.
If I took that first drink, I'd be back to the drunken me in a wink.
Best to you and don't be too hard on yourself.
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Join Date: Aug 2014
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Keep on trying you will achieve your goal I did took me 3 months
I kept relapsing in this time no one believed I wanted to be sober when that was all I wanted unwanted my life back but wasnt ready soon went round and round in circles until the penny finally dropped
I'm only going round and round because I was choosing to the second I stopped choosing and just said no and took the other choice out of the equation it stopped I had to want to be sober get a support network like minded ppl with kindness and compassion in their hearts and with all my soul and fought like crazy to get sober
You can do i !!!
I kept relapsing in this time no one believed I wanted to be sober when that was all I wanted unwanted my life back but wasnt ready soon went round and round in circles until the penny finally dropped
I'm only going round and round because I was choosing to the second I stopped choosing and just said no and took the other choice out of the equation it stopped I had to want to be sober get a support network like minded ppl with kindness and compassion in their hearts and with all my soul and fought like crazy to get sober
You can do i !!!
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Kudos to you for coming back here and posting, Tony 
But at least now you know where that first drink will lead - where it will always lead. Accepting that I could not drink safely was a huge step forward for me. It simplified everything - no more decisions, no more agonising, no more trying to drink like a 'normie'.
I hope you find the support you need, my friend xx
But at least now you know where that first drink will lead - where it will always lead. Accepting that I could not drink safely was a huge step forward for me. It simplified everything - no more decisions, no more agonising, no more trying to drink like a 'normie'. I hope you find the support you need, my friend xx
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