bookmaven

My friend broke her foot and that reminded me of when I broke my ankle. I'd been in a rush to get to the store. It was 8:55 pm, no alcohol sales after 9. Looking back 20 years I see a valuable lesson was lost on me. My addicted brain learned that I needed to go to the store earlier.

The point is that even though I was not under the influence when it happened it was still an alcoholic related incident. I never put the two together until now.

PurpleKnight

It's a good point, I used to almost have a panic attack on the drive home from work trying to work out did I have enough alcohol at home for the evening and if not I would drop by the liquor store.

All that running around, stressing about my next drink, life was solely focused on facilitating alcohol, it was never done during drinking, but even stone cold Sober, alcohol was still pulling the strings in my life, it was controlling my actions!!

instant

The calculations and planning, rotating stores, getting rid of the empties etc etc etc glad it's over

Ythill

I think of all the times I turned down seeing my friends and family because I worried about how I was going to drink the quantity I wanted to at the speed I wanted to.

People would ask me if I wanted to see a movie, go out to eat etc on a Friday morning - I always said, "Oh, I have a work thing I need to do." Or better yet, "I'm going to be out of town." The reality was that I had planned on sitting in my apartment by myself and getting ****-hammered. I hated doing this, but the alcoholic voice loved it.

anattaboy

The wife and I were just talking yesterday about how few trips to the store we make and how many we don't frequent these days.

bookmaven

I wonder, what if the ER doctor gave me a Rx for alcohol counseling? Would I have gone to it or rolled my eyes and laughed it off? I remember telling them I was on my way to buy alcohol, but I think since I was not drinking when it happened, why it happened was not a red flag. Did they even ask me about my drinking? That part I can't remember.