Windancer

I know that is to be expected. For the most part Ive done well. Productive (ish), sober, not whining or begging for booze, leaving my partner alone to heal, and coming up with a self help plan for myself. Lifestyle change for me! I just don't want my motivation to leave me. One step at a time I guess, even if its a small one. Trying to forget about my current problems with my partner, and focus on me.....that is VERY hard. I made a nice comfortable bed for myself upstairs where I can be by myself and focus on me. I know that's what I need to do, but I feel ever so lonely so easily. Im proud of myself, and am trying to hard to focus on the good, and the NOW. Im trying very hard to watch my thoughts, and be nice to myself. I feel very needy, sometimes to the point of desperation. But that only pushes loved ones away, and really the person I need the most is me.

Windancer

I have had NO appetite at all today. Ive had tea and water. I tried some soup but could only get a few mouthfuls down. This is typical for me when Im really stressed.

Mags1

Hi windancer, taking care of yourself is important when you've stopped the booze.

I found it a life changing experience and remember small steps, yes, baby steps. I always wanted to get to the end in a rush, but I'm learning it hasn't an end, this is a way of life.

So, so much better than a boozy life, though.

My emotions were all over the place, still are, sometimes. It does get better and easier.

Windancer

Thanks for the hope, Mags. Im not digesting anything well at all. I think soups, and vegetable juices are a good place to start for that.

LBrain

I agree with Mags Winddancer.

You need to focus on yourself. But please try to eat. Even if it's just snacks. Depriving yourself of something in your belly can lead to wanting a drink.

Remember, you can't fix everything at once. Small steps and work on the little things. Most importantly, take whatever steps and precautions necessary to prevent you from drinking.


try some crackers or pretzels if you got em.

Windancer

Thanks, I believe you two are right. Ill try some bites, and then shortly later try some more few bites.

Windancer

Anyone know if their is a sobriety time calculator app on this site?

PurpleKnight

SoberRecovery : Sober Time Sobriety Calculator

Thepatman

My trick in the early days is to eat what I feel like. My last detox I had a big fillet mignon and potatoes. Got me right back up on my feet. Not doctor recommended but heck, if you feel like a Poutine then have one!

Windancer

I feel like eating nothing....nauseous at the thought. Im going to try though. Im not looking forward tonight.....first time sleeping alone in a long long time, in an uncomfortable bed. I feel like a whiner...and I probably am. I feel motivated and confidant, then so depressed and sad and defeated.

Thepatman

You unfortunately know the drill my friend. The first few days of sobriety are simply brutal emotionally and physically. Hang in there, hydrate properly with something containing Electrolytes, B1 if you have any, and make sure can check on you once in a while. If things get our of hand withdrawal wise, don't take an unnecessary risk and get yourself to the ER.

You got this, push trough the first few days and you will feel a lot better.

Lucie29

I don't have an appetite either Wind. Stress and anxiety are setting in and I feel trapped again. I'm trying to eat apple and peanut butter and almonds, my favorite snack. Maybe try eating something healthy and delish so you feel better?

Hawkeye13

Have you got something to read and maybe a journal to write in?
I found insomnia to be one of the worst parts.

Wishing you a good sleep--maybe a long bath and some herbal tea before bed?

Windancer

Yupp, journal and books beside my bed. The withdrawal isn't too bad....its just emotional. No shakes, extreme panic or anything like Ive had before when I needed the hospital. And yes Hawkeye, Im having camomile tea right now and plan a nice Epsom salt bath.

Dee74

Sounds like you're doing pretty well for a day one, windancer

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courage2

Just stay in the present. Do you have anything that's light to help you pass the time and distract you from anxiety, television or painting your nails? It's important in the first days to comfort yourself too -- a nice bath sounds like a great start!

Windancer

Thanks so much everyone. Im so glad Im back and here to stay