125 days clean...
painless
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125 days clean...
Hit 125 today and I feel great. Ive achieved every goal ive set the past 125 days and at times i feel BULLETPROOF... I work out 2xs every day and im pretty big verses being a fat junkie... I get my high from bench pressing 450lbs and looking at all the watchers who stare at me in total disbelief that I actually can lift that much... My life is only missing one thing... but that one thing is ungrabable right now but ill wait however long it will take... i have love in my life but my heart is so very torn and it lies not within my own chest for me to even try to smack some sense into... to me... using was just a bad dream that i thank god i woke up from but to others it was the destroyer of so many wonderful and beautiful things... i see all the wrongs ive done to myself and especially to others and theres nothing i can do to change what ive done other then to keep on keeping on and stay on this righteous path god has laid out before me. to deter off this path would lead me directly to hell and i just cant go there right now no matter how badly i miss some of the friends i know are burning down there and that the party would start soon as my horns popped out my thick skull... i know i screwed up... knowing that and taking responsibility for being the magnanimous of a screw up is a huge accomplishment. I cast blame on no one but myself and my inner demons that are at this very moment trying to talk **** to me but their lies fall upon my deaf ears. i aint a screw up anymore and i never will again be one. i will screw up some **** and some situations but drugs will neer be the fault involved in any of my future screw ups... i can screw **** up all on my own and with a great style to it where otheres will at least admit... MAN THAT GUY JUST ****** UP BUT DID IT WITH ALL HIS HEART... LOL... STAY CLEAN EVERYONE... HAPPY 36TH TT
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