YoungAndClean has 90 Days!
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YoungAndClean has 90 Days!
Hello SoberRecovery, I've missed you all.
It's been a while since my relapse in March (at 7 months of sobriety) and since then I have been in rehab, both inpatient and outpatient.
This has been a long fought battle since around 2008 and for this 29 year old it's been the hardest thing I've ever had to do and I still haven't reached 9 months sober.
The first 30 days I was extremely depressed, homesick, and suicidal. But I knew my counselor was right when he told me that my life was going to either get a whole lot better or a whole lot worse. So many times I wanted to run out/quit during rehab and waste my parents money. But I stuck it out and today I have 90 Days.
Whats different this time around is that I have a lot of relapses behind me to reflect on. How they happened, and what came about as a result of that. I just no longer want that for myself, it simply isn't worth it and I am working so hard to build a life that I wouldn't trade for any drug/drink.
The 3 most important tools that worked to get me 90 days:
1) Stay in treatment as long as possible(sober living, inpatient, AA, outpatient, et cetera) I need that accountability.
2) I have a awesome support system, so many great friends I met in rehab that I talk to on a daily basis. Also I live with a friend who is in the program. Seeing others struggling to do the same thing I am really helped me to not isolate.
3) Play the tape through. Around 65-70 days I came very close to a relapse. I couldn't tell you why other then the obsession resurfaced and I was thirsty for oblivion. I had to visualize failing my outpatient drug test, getting kicked out of my living situation, wasting my parents $$ they so generously put up so that I could go to rehab, ending up homeless.
I am very proud of myself, it is so hard to get back into recovery from Day 1 all over again. Holy crap was it hard to get that first week, two weeks, one month. At 90 days the obsession isn't even really there.
Best of luck to all of you trying to get this thing called recovery!
It's been a while since my relapse in March (at 7 months of sobriety) and since then I have been in rehab, both inpatient and outpatient.
This has been a long fought battle since around 2008 and for this 29 year old it's been the hardest thing I've ever had to do and I still haven't reached 9 months sober.
The first 30 days I was extremely depressed, homesick, and suicidal. But I knew my counselor was right when he told me that my life was going to either get a whole lot better or a whole lot worse. So many times I wanted to run out/quit during rehab and waste my parents money. But I stuck it out and today I have 90 Days.
Whats different this time around is that I have a lot of relapses behind me to reflect on. How they happened, and what came about as a result of that. I just no longer want that for myself, it simply isn't worth it and I am working so hard to build a life that I wouldn't trade for any drug/drink.
The 3 most important tools that worked to get me 90 days:
1) Stay in treatment as long as possible(sober living, inpatient, AA, outpatient, et cetera) I need that accountability.
2) I have a awesome support system, so many great friends I met in rehab that I talk to on a daily basis. Also I live with a friend who is in the program. Seeing others struggling to do the same thing I am really helped me to not isolate.
3) Play the tape through. Around 65-70 days I came very close to a relapse. I couldn't tell you why other then the obsession resurfaced and I was thirsty for oblivion. I had to visualize failing my outpatient drug test, getting kicked out of my living situation, wasting my parents $$ they so generously put up so that I could go to rehab, ending up homeless.
I am very proud of myself, it is so hard to get back into recovery from Day 1 all over again. Holy crap was it hard to get that first week, two weeks, one month. At 90 days the obsession isn't even really there.
Best of luck to all of you trying to get this thing called recovery!
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