Jupiters

morning all!
Hope everyone is enjoying their sober weekend thus far it's a cloudy Saturday here. Got my month chip last night and had my mom and BF there, felt pretty good.
As I've mentioned before, I'm in legal trouble and facing jail soon (2 weeks basically)....now I'm not going away for long but possibly 6-8 weekends. Whatever the time, i"m scared as f***. Never in a million years would I have thought I'd find myself facing THIS. Ever. I have NO idea what to expect and have heard mixed stories through people...
what I find odd/weird is that I haven't broken down yet??? Like, haven't freaked out and shed a tear. I cried a bit last night, but that was b/c I have an aunt in BC who sent some very sweet texts....but when it comes to the "jail" thing...it's like
a. I am total denial that this is even going to happen and my mind has shut down
b. I'm tapped into some weird source of strength already that is allowing me to just auto pilot through this

I keep expecting a breakdown moment, but it hasn't happened. I'm sure that day in court, when I'm cuffed and taken I will cry like a baby.

thanks for listening. Not sure what I'm looking for with this post. I guess just wanted to get it off my head.

Ghostlight1

Congratulations on a month! And you didn't drink with the pressure of impending jail time.
Never been to jail, so I can't help you there but I hope it isn't too bad.
Sending good thoughts your way.

PurpleKnight

Great Job on 1 Month!! Hang in there!!

biminiblue

Congrats on the month.

I'm sure you will find the strength to make it through whatever you are going to face. Your success rate at facing difficult days is 100% so far, right?

CristinaN

Philippians 4:13 come to mind when I read this. . Good luck to you.

Mountainmanbob

very understandable
for many I think (including myself from past experiences)
just go on auto pilot through the whole court process
I felt like I was in the twilight zone during my court appearances
but
there is good news
sounds like your time to be served will be very short
don't make the mistake that I did after severing a short sentence
I returned to the drink and other things
and before too long
I was back in court facing the same thing yet again

Mountainman

desypete

i was just going to say the same thing as bob just typed up

once i got out of prison i went to get some booze to celebrate my being free well it seemed like the normal thing anyone would do

sure enough i ended up back in prison
i can remember getting out how happy i was after being in for 12 weeks, my kids were hoping i would sober up in prison and come back to being there sober dad when i got out
they had banner at home saying well come home dad and they were all so excited i was coming home etc
i turned up drunk as a skunk i broke there hearts again and i again tried to expain to them that it was only a 1 off drink to celebrate my freedom and i will not drink from tomorrow
of course they knew better than me

desypete

after posting my last message i have just given my kids a huge hug as i can see how lucky i am to have them love me so much
thanks to your post you made me think on something i hadn't thought about in a long while

see you just shared your experince with us and just by doing that it helps people like me to feel grateful when i feel that why i also feel warm inside of me and loving and kind all the things that i must feed myself daily on otherwise mr selfish will come out and be unhappy again wanting my own way

so thanks very much for your post and i hope it all goes well for you and that on your release you dont make the same mistake i have done and many others to who have been in prison and drank again

SoberLeigh

I vote "b.".

Remember we are here for you.

HeadLump

You've already shown great strength - you got this!

And you've also got all of us sending prayers and positive vibes!