anewlife88

So I'm the type of person that connects with music alot, when i have a hard time saying something a certain song and their lyrics can help me say it best and i found a song that i connect with the most right now and here it is, Animal I have become- and this is exactly how I feel on my second day of sobriety off of OXy's for the second time after a three week binge when i was sober for 12 days then got a trigger and went on that binge,. Here i am on day 2.

I can't escape this hell
So many times i've tried
But i'm still caged inside
Somebody get me through this nightmare
I can't control myself

So what if you can see the darkest side of me?
No one will ever change this animal I have become
Help me believe it's not the real me
Somebody help me tame this animal
(This animal, this animal)

I can't escape myself
(I can't escape myself)
So many times i've lied
(So many times i've lied)
But there's still rage inside
Somebody get me through this nightmare
I can't control myself

So what if you can see the darkest side of me?
No one will ever change this animal I have become
Help me believe it's not the real me
Somebody help me tame this animal I have become
Help me believe it's not the real me
Somebody help me tame this animal

Somebody help me through this nightmare
I can't control myself
Somebody wake me from this nightmare
I can't escape this hell

(This animal, this animal, this animal, this animal, this animal, this animal, this animal)

So what if you can see the darkest side of me?
No one will ever change this animal I have become
Help me believe it's not the real me
Somebody help me tame this animal I have become
Help me believe it's not the real me
Somebody help me tame this animal
(This animal I have become)

finaltime

as you know it gets easier if you don't pick up again. Can you get to an NA meeting? YOu don't have to do this alone. Reach out, look up your local NA or AA online, someone will call you and talk with you. I reached out and a nice lady with 9 years came and sat with me through my detox. I couldn't have made it without the program. You are doing good, hang in there.

robgt350

anewlife
great poem/song btw.

you are doing good now. the days will add up and before you know it, you will have some good time. please come back to the chat room again and talk to us. you are a good person and doing so well. your addiction is strong, but you can be stronger. you did it before, and i know you can do it again.
hope to see you around again