lostthoughts

I've been an active IV methamphetamine user since 2011. I've tried numerous times to quit using, everytime I use, I always say I'm never going to do it again, or stop shooting and only smoke/snort/eat it. But that demon inside of me never fails to come alive. But today feels different (06/07/2014) I don't want to hide behind my meth monster anymore. I can't afford rehab, so I'm trying something new.. I'm just tired of being sick and tired. I'm only 29, I have to change how I've been treating my body, I'm pretty sure that I have hepatitis C.. there has to be something better than this life I'm living..

I just posted the same thing in the newcomers forum, I just feel it seems better to be posted in substance abuse..

doggonecarl

I was hooked on meth in the late 70s, early 80s, before it became the scourge it is now. A hard high to give up, but it can be done. Rehab costs, but NA is free. Give it some thought.

Good luck.

lostthoughts

Thank you, much appreciated

paloverde

I too had meth in my life (daily habit) until 10 years ago. One day I decided enough is enough. I couldn't take it anymore. I went through a week of withdrawals and that was it. I was done. I didn't even like the high anymore, I was more addicted to the rituals of doing it.

After quitting completely I had occasional cravings but it no longer had a place in my life so I let it go. You can do it too!

anykey

best of luck

OpioPhobe

Lost - I don't have personal experience with speed, but I can totally relate to the feeling that there must be something better out there than the life I was living. When I got to that point I was finally ready to quit. Best of luck with the withdrawal.

dblightstream

There was recovery before treatment centers my friend!!! Good job on recognizing what you need to do! Good luck!

Riles Smiles

Sometimes, when it comes down to a methamphetamine addiction, it is just worthwhile to fork over the costs for recovery, it might cost a lot, but how much do you think your mental and physical health is worth?

lostthoughts

I'm honestly aware of that, but I simply cannot afford and do not have anyone to help me with a rehab..i feel like I can do this on my own. it's different this time..i wasn't ready before..i'm more than ready now..

needingabreak

The Salvation Army has free rehab but there may be a wait. It doesn't hurt to check them out. I wish you the best of luck!

megamillion

Hey, I'm on day 2 of recovery from meth. I was never an IV user but I can relate to what you're going through. It's so ******* hard battling with yourself every damn day about whether you are going to use or not- then giving in and realizing you made a mistake. It's time for us to break that cycle of disappointment in ourselves. I was pretty close to using today but decided not. Hope you are still hangin in there.

four812

Wow that sums it up! The battle of whether I am going to use or not. I can really relate to that

Then when I give in and use the battle becomes different. It's a battle to finding ways to keep using. Like lying about a reason to get away....and trying to be "normal" or not high when I get back home or to work