My truth
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My truth
I think I'm not like you. But go down to the pub at 1 pm spend money that I needed for the week have 3 wines stop at bottle shop grab a bottle and 1 can . Open the can whilst driving pick up my kids from school . Don't make my youngest son to go to footy and my hubby picks up older son to take him. But I'm not like you. Text my mum for 50 cause I spent our money. But I'm not like you. I don't wake up and drink cause I'm not like you. Did this yesterday and had to drive back to hospital with my can I'm not like you. Go to bottle shop yesterday on my way home from hospital drank 2 glasses so tired so didn't finish the bottle so I'm so not you. I know I'm just like you xxxx
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Originally Posted by Dee74 
It was a very hard thing for me to admit too Liss - I'm sure you and I are not alone in this. Admitting it can be the first step to dealing with it. D
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Originally Posted by liss74
after a year and a half I'm just hitting the iceberg . Surrender is going to feel like a weight off my shoulders it's been a long fight .
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I think it's funny how different I thought I was from other alcoholics. I didn't know anyone who drank like I did. I didn't spend money at the bar because I drank at home. I didn't get a DUI because I rarely drove anywhere. I was special, damnit. My drinking was tragically unique!
What's really funny is that when I pulled the cotton out of my ears and shoved it in my mouth and listened, really listened, to other alcoholics, I found out that we were often the same. Change a few surface details but deep down, we were all the same. Heck, Tuesday night a woman came and spoke at my home group and she shocked me. Her story was so much like my own! It was scary and exciting and wonderful to listen to her.
In the beginning, all I could see were the differences. I had a very firm idea of what alcoholism was and what AA was and why it wasn't for me. Those ideas, of course, were based on what I chose to hear and what kept me from having to change. Now, it's hard to concentrate on the differences I see in other alcoholics because I am so overwhelmed with the fellowship I feel with them.
What's really funny is that when I pulled the cotton out of my ears and shoved it in my mouth and listened, really listened, to other alcoholics, I found out that we were often the same. Change a few surface details but deep down, we were all the same. Heck, Tuesday night a woman came and spoke at my home group and she shocked me. Her story was so much like my own! It was scary and exciting and wonderful to listen to her.
In the beginning, all I could see were the differences. I had a very firm idea of what alcoholism was and what AA was and why it wasn't for me. Those ideas, of course, were based on what I chose to hear and what kept me from having to change. Now, it's hard to concentrate on the differences I see in other alcoholics because I am so overwhelmed with the fellowship I feel with them.
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Originally Posted by Chilledice
No need to say sorry Liss , we all have been there!
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Originally Posted by liss74
yep that's why I belong here god I need to belong . And finally god gave me what I was searching for my whole life . Friends . And I turned my back on it . Crazy !!!!
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Originally Posted by Chilledice
It can ALL be turned around for the better Liss!
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Originally Posted by liss74
Yes I need to want it I feel like I do so much but I just cave to anything . How can i be honest with myself ? I'm full of denial it sickens me .
Hold onto the TRUTH Liss! You had sobriety before, you have PROVEN that you can have freedom from this hell!
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