Eklypised

No matter what I get off of I seem to always need something. If im not taking pain pills I'm taking suboxone. If I'm not taking suboxone I'm drinking. It's like I can't go without something. I don't know what to do to just beat it all and be SOBER.

Soberpotamus

Addicts want something outside of themselves to feel ok. We somehow feel that we are just not enough. We have to learn how to be ok with reality. And part of being ok with reality is accepting yourself as fallible. It's not an easy road. But I personally think it's worth it.

GotGrace

Hey there! Welcome! Have you ever talked to a therapist? It sounds to me like you are uncomfortable with you, maybe because of unresolved issues in your life or maybe just because you haven't been "you" in a long time. Perhaps an objective person could help you dig through what is making you feel like you need to check out?

anewpage

I'm exactly the same. I feel like I'm constantly looking for something - anything - to alter my reality, be it alcohol, codeine, Vicodin, whatever. I don't like feeling like just me. So, no advice for you.. just to say that I understand exactly how that feels.

seethefuture

I don't feel a constant need but I do know that when I abuse alcohol, I am trying to medicate away my life's struggles. I am trying very hard to meet those head on - it takes a lot of thought and I do have a psychiatrist that helps me. I like the suggestion above to examine what you may (or not!) be trying to numb. It stinks to do it - it's so painful and hard!

Hang in there - maybe meetings or even rehab?

Nonsensical

You don't need it. You just feel like you need it.

Lots of feelings are not acted upon. Make this one of them.

ElleDee

BINGO! This is true... I'm learning that myself.

instant

Thats just the way it is- addiction. As a fellow buzz seeker i have learned the longer i stay sober the stronger i get. The restlessness is still there but maintaining a committment to sobriety gets easier with time

least

I hope the support here can help you get sober for good.

Dee74

I was used to feeling buzzed, out of it, or high.
Not feeling that way made me nervous - but it was also killing me.

I was terrified of reality and being 'straight' - but I actually like it a lot better, Eklypised

why not give it a try?

D

Weaver

I had to literally RELEARN what it was like to be sober and not constantly drunk. I was so accustomed to being drunk or hungover I genuinely forgot what it was like to just be. To just be...me ya know?

Brian316

I see a counseler who believes we have a hole in us metaphysically speaking. It can come from any number of things, but a common denominator is that we've always been a little "different" you might say. So many of us, after the drugs are taken away will try to fill it with something else. Sex, music, food etc. how do we deal with this void healthily? Well there are many good ideas here. Does it ever go away? I don't know. I am trying the 12 steps of Alcoholics Anonymous.

Eklypised

Preciate it.
I'm really considering talking to a counselor at a local University.