Two days
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Join Date: Apr 2014
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Thanks. By saying sneaking, I mean I thought I was hiding everything very well when in fact everyone around me knew. It's so hard falling asleep when I am used to just passing out. But last night I remember thinking how great my new sheets felt. The sad thing is I bought them 7 months ago.
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At times really great. This morning I actually felt like getting up for work. Which is good because if I call in late one more time I don't know what would happen. Sometimes I feel free but other times like I am missing out. I get emotional, teary. I have back pain which kind of escalated the drinking so really feeling that pain and not being numb has been hard. I like remembering the evenings after work, conversations that I have but if it was in front of me I'd most likely still take a drink, even with the positive seemingly outweighing the negative feelings. That little voice is in my head saying that it's Friday, you've been good for two days, you deserve it...
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Join Date: Apr 2014
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don listen to that voice April
It is been talking to me for 15 years and nothing really good came out of that.
i know how easier it is to cope with pain both emotional and physical with the help of alcohol, but trust me the result is always the same.
The pain just hides for some hours but after that he is back and he is even stronger.
i m a newcomer too as you
i ve been good for 5 days
keep fighting
It is been talking to me for 15 years and nothing really good came out of that.
i know how easier it is to cope with pain both emotional and physical with the help of alcohol, but trust me the result is always the same.
The pain just hides for some hours but after that he is back and he is even stronger.
i m a newcomer too as you
i ve been good for 5 days
keep fighting
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Join Date: Apr 2014
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I'm sure the weekends will be hardest (on my first) but this can be done. I've got some sparkling juice in, is there anything you could drink that is alcohol free? I'm not going to do this long term but I thought it might help for the first Friday and Saturday when I'm used to drinking a lot of wine.
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Thanks apo. I've been keeping a journal and just keep reading again how happy I genuinely felt this morning. I look at my arms and chest and face in the mirror and realize why people always ask me if I have been out in the sun. I hope the redness will go away one day.
2 days is a wonderful accomplishment April. We all now how hard it is. I was drinking all day - even at work - and I'm sure people knew but didn't want to confront me. I have no desire to go back to that miserable life.
Glad you joined us and are off to a great start.
Glad you joined us and are off to a great start.
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KateL, I made it through Friday night, then Saturday I worked. Saturday evening I was fine. Sunday day I wanted something so bad. I took a shot of vodka, then I poured it all out. I know I shouldn't still have something in my house. I felt guilty but I am moving on. First weekend in years I can remember. It was beautiful. I am not going to drag myself down about the slip up. Thanks for listening. I had to tell someone.
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