Juggler

My head is mashed up today. I started feeling really depressed last night but got through it, just. I had an early night as I thought the sleep might help but had such vivid coke binge dreams all night, slept through the alarm clock and woke 5 mins after I should have left home for work, exhausted. It's very hard to concentrate on anything, I keep telling myself I've done well, I'm ok, what harm would a half gram do if I spread it over the weekend, a little toot here and there, of course I know if I had it I would sit and do it all, until it's gone. I'm a big guy I work in construction, I'm on a site now almost tearful, really struggling with this. Hope you're all doing well.