FourSeasons

Hello there!

So, I had four solid months of sobriety behind me. This was the very first time EVER!!!

I caved Christmas Eve and have been dabbling ever since. As I reflect back...It has been about 15 or so dabbles since Xmas Eve.

Today, after about 5 days without drinking I decided to buy a 1/2 pint of vodka and of Baileys.

Then, as luck would have it... there was a great bottle of red wine on sale for $6.00...

So, I got home... I mixed myself a cool White Russian.

AND... THEN...

I just realized that I still have it! I haven't even touched it...

INSTEAD...

I subconsciously picked up a can of Diet Ginger Ale. I just realized I have been drinking Diet Ginger Ale for the past hour (and instead of booze!!)

So, although I have booze and made a drink, I didn't drink it.

More importantly, I don't even want to drink it!!!

I can honestly say that my subconscious mind took over tonight.

Truly. Sobriety is just better. Life is more easy. I am more positive. I have more money in my savings. I look better. I never wake up having to say, "I'm sorry"...

I just don't want to drink anymore...

Can anyone relate?

Dee74

I made that choice a couple of times before I quit for good ...it feels good...but follow through...dump all that booze 4S...you can change your mind in a slip second if you know it's there...

dump it...and move onto onto day 6

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least

Get rid of it, it can only be a temptation. Pour it out and keep yourself out of danger. Good for you for not drinking.

FourSeasons

OK... It is down the drain. And, Yes. I agree. It must go...

But... my initial question remains...

My decision to drink tonight was not made on a conscious level. Consciously, I fully intended to drink.

Subconsciously, however, I decided not to drink...

Diet Ginger Ale was my preferred drink.

Hence, I think this is a very positive sign on the road to Recovery!!!

Remember, Recovery is a marathon and not a sprint!!!

jdooner

Many of us have had a moment that has allowed us to see the future and move away fro alcohol. For me it was when a stewardess handed me a vodka and diet sprite on Air France back from Paris. I just knew it was my last drink. That does not mean I have not had struggles though. Pour it all out!

Dee74

Don't misunderstand me....I share your hope this will be the first night of a lifetime more sober nights 4S

good for you for pouring the booze out

D

FourSeasons

Oh... Dee... I never misunderstand you. Your advice rocks... you oh so wise one...!!! Right after your first response, I knew to pour it!!! xoxo