Day 22....
Day 22....
Well I messed up my sobriety date. I thought it was February 3. But it is feb 4. I am reluctant to put this date on my posts. Seems like it brings bad luck....but we all know it isn't luck, is it. I can't say I don't miss drinking, because I do. It helps tremendously that my husband doesn't drink. Scary reading stories about long periods of sobriety, just to have a relapse. I bought a book last night by George McGovern - Terry. My daughters life and struggles with alcoholism. It is absolutely heartbreaking. Big tears reading this book. Terry dies drunk in a snowbank, alone. This is all incredibly sad. Both for the A's and those that love them. Especially those that think they can love of us into sobriety. It just doesn't work that way, does it? I wish it did. Reading other stories about the husband/wives, sister/bros, siblings, parents, friends, etc., that stick by their A's pay a heavy price. For that, I am sorry and my heart goes out to you. So I need something else to think about today, so I shall venture out today and run some errands. Prayers and blessings to you all. Love ya' bunches!!
George McGovern - Terry. My daughters life and struggles with alcoholism This is one I will pick up.
I find that reading books about other alcoholics and seeing movies about addiction help me immensely. I'm coming up on 2 years and sometimes drinking sounds fun again like it was back in the days when I was enjoying it and getting away with it. I need to be reminded how ugly and sad it can be for those of us with a real problem.
Thanks for the update...keep them coming!
I find that reading books about other alcoholics and seeing movies about addiction help me immensely. I'm coming up on 2 years and sometimes drinking sounds fun again like it was back in the days when I was enjoying it and getting away with it. I need to be reminded how ugly and sad it can be for those of us with a real problem.
Thanks for the update...keep them coming!
Especially those that think they can love of us into sobriety. It just doesn't work that way, does it? I wish it did. Reading other stories about the husband/wives, sister/bros, siblings, parents, friends, etc., that stick by their A's pay a heavy price. For that, I am sorry and my heart goes out to you.
Thanks for the book recommendation. Hugs to you.
What a difference 3 weeks of your life can make, you are certanly on a path with a bright future Raider. Thanks for your inspiration and help to all of us here at SR and have a great day.
One of the biggest enemies...
In recovery, and now after six years sobriety, and able to think cognitively (truth and reason) which allows me to look back, but you mustn't stare! At anything!!! Least of all, yourself.
I've realized that two personal qualities have helped me through my life. With the odd rare exception, my own self reliance and experiences, although the latter aren't infallible.
No life is without events that test and challenge it.
Within in those two qualities, I learned not just to seek forgiveness from others, but just as importantly, to forgive myself.
How did I do that? By defeating the biggest enemy, that will stand in the way of anyone's recovery.
By falling into the trap of becoming my own worst enemy, and being to hard on myself...not least by setting my own high standards and expecting others to live up to them.
Whether in fact, aka reality or fiction...
Learning not only to accept myself, for simply being the person I am, and to love myself, goes a long way to defeat that to ...
I've realized that two personal qualities have helped me through my life. With the odd rare exception, my own self reliance and experiences, although the latter aren't infallible.
No life is without events that test and challenge it.
Within in those two qualities, I learned not just to seek forgiveness from others, but just as importantly, to forgive myself.
How did I do that? By defeating the biggest enemy, that will stand in the way of anyone's recovery.
By falling into the trap of becoming my own worst enemy, and being to hard on myself...not least by setting my own high standards and expecting others to live up to them.
Whether in fact, aka reality or fiction...
Learning not only to accept myself, for simply being the person I am, and to love myself, goes a long way to defeat that to ...
I read that years ago - I cried too. The futility of it all. The McGovern's had all the resources & tried so hard. It had a huge impact on me - not enough to quit until later - but I never forgot it. (And you're right - it doesn't work that way.)
Proud of you Raider.
Proud of you Raider.
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