Imabuleva

...and my AV has been showing its ugly face.

It keep telling me, "It will be okay. Just have a couple drinks. You don't have to work this week. No one will know. You just got carried away last time, and that's why you got sick. You can control it this time." But I noticed a few things:

1. It wasn't even noon when this started. Normal drinkers don't obsess over drinking. Let alone before noon.

2. I know I don't want just a few. I want a whole damn pint of whiskey. At least.

3. This will inevitably lead to more drinking tomorrow and another binge if I give in. Because the EXACT SAME "logic" that applies today will apply tomorrow. It would even be worse because I would be hungover, my brain chemistry all thrown off from the chemical bath I gave it today and craving more.

If I don't start, I don't have to stop.

Stupid AV.

BillinSaratoga

Ima - fight the voice! We all hear it and it twists the truth and makes it feel like those few drinks won't matter and why not try. You know why not and you're doing great not listening

foolsgold66

Yup. Well done.

My favorite lately 'Non-alcoholics don't have a little voice in their head telling them its ok to drink'.

Imabuleva

Thanks guys. The urge seems to have passed, but the experience has reminded me to be vigilant.

PurpleKnight

Stay strong Imabuleva, and keep pushing through!!

Alcohol is a crafty bugger, it could sell ice to eskimos!!