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Hi. I'm new here. I drink too much, and I'm sick of it. I'm so upset with myself - what am I thinking? I don't want to drink anymore, yet if we don't have alcohol in the house my dumb brain convinces me to go get some. I hate it. Even this morning when I have finally signed up here to get some help (because I was up at 4:00 Googling "I don't want to drink anymore") I still think, well we have a cider, I could probably just drink one. No I can't! Why does my mind work like this? I'm so upset. My family deserves a sober mom/wife and I deserve to be healthy too. I want out of this dumb relationship with wine and beer.
Thanks for listening to me rant. I usually don't feel so upset but I am really struggling this morning and I need to tell someone to make this change real, if that makes sense.
Thanks for listening to me rant. I usually don't feel so upset but I am really struggling this morning and I need to tell someone to make this change real, if that makes sense.
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Originally Posted by Hellome 
I usually don't feel so upset but I am really struggling this morning and I need to tell someone to make this change real, if that makes sense.
You are in a great place for support and advice.
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Welcome to SR! You are going to be glad you joined this community!
My mind works like that, too. In my case it's because I have an addict living in my head who is willing to risk anything (and everything) to get a buzz on. It took me far too long to figure out that he lies to me 100% of the time. My life got a lot better when I quit taking his recommendations. 
You can do this!
Originally Posted by Hellome
I still think, well we have a cider, I could probably just drink one. No I can't! Why does my mind work like this?
You can do this!
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Join Date: Dec 2013
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Feeling upset about it in this case is very useful. It drives you to want to change. I've only been here a few days and it's been a huge support already.
Many have been where you are and succeeded overcoming this problem.
Welcome!
Many have been where you are and succeeded overcoming this problem.
Welcome!
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Join Date: Sep 2012
Location: Ireland
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Welcome to the Forum, I have slipped in the past back to drinking due to exactly the same, if there is no alcohol in the house, I'd go and get some, there always had to be something at all times, I also have a pub within 5mins walking distance of where I live.
You'll probably read a lot of posts about coming up with a plan, but that's what is needed, "when x happens or when I do x, what do I do differently", it's not an easy thing completely changing habits built up over years.
You've made a great first step in wanting to change!!
You'll probably read a lot of posts about coming up with a plan, but that's what is needed, "when x happens or when I do x, what do I do differently", it's not an easy thing completely changing habits built up over years.
You've made a great first step in wanting to change!!
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Join Date: Dec 2013
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Thanks for the welcome. I plan on sticking around for a while. I stopped drinking for seven or eight days a few months ago and it felt weird to go to Target and not grab a bottle of wine. I hate that alcohol has that grip on me. I cannot and will not continue down this path. It's gotten so much worse, and I hate myself for it.
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Join Date: Apr 2007
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Hi Hellome
There's tons of support here
Check out our Class of December thread - it's for everyone quitting this month:
http://www.soberrecovery.com/forums/...art-2-a-3.html
and we have a moms thread too:
http://www.soberrecovery.com/forums/...rt-6-a-12.html
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There's tons of support here
Check out our Class of December thread - it's for everyone quitting this month:
http://www.soberrecovery.com/forums/...art-2-a-3.html
and we have a moms thread too:
http://www.soberrecovery.com/forums/...rt-6-a-12.html
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Join Date: Aug 2007
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Very glad to meet you hellome!
It's wonderful that you recognize the problem and are seeking help. It took me a very long time to get to that point. I kept trying to use willpower to just have 'one or two'. There was no such thing for me. You can do this - we'll help.
It's wonderful that you recognize the problem and are seeking help. It took me a very long time to get to that point. I kept trying to use willpower to just have 'one or two'. There was no such thing for me. You can do this - we'll help.
to SR! I'm glad you found us and joined the family. Lots of support here for those wanting to quit drinking. Member
Join Date: Dec 2013
Location: Upstate NY
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Hellome - Welcome to SR. New to this myself but I KNOW you've made the right decision. Don't hate yourself, and something everyone here has told me and I'm working very hard to accept it as a primary driver ... don't look back at what you've done...look forward to today and tomorrow. I've had some pretty severe anxiety and I do the google thing too my too. I recommend hanging out here, post here...read... there are many GREAT people, and you will soon, if not already, know your not alone and many have walked the path you are on. Congrats on your decision to stop and welcome to a great forum.
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Join Date: Sep 2011
Location: Sunny Florida
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I know exactly how you feel/ You've come to the right place. Just keep trying.
This is one of the best support systems to me.Keep coming here and reading..You will learn a lot and won't feel alone in your addiction.
This is one of the best support systems to me.Keep coming here and reading..You will learn a lot and won't feel alone in your addiction.
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