Suekie

If you've seen previous posts of mine, you know that I'm absolutely terrified and at first I decided I wouldn't give it a chance at all.

I'm taking the step.. just got dressed (after laying in bed all day with no energy) and did my makeup. I'm going to an all women's group in the next city over.

I hope this isn't unbearable.

Hollyanne

Good luck!
Remember, they were all new once!

Dee74

All the best Suekie

Olive1

I hope you will be pleasantly surprised.

Kaneda8888

All the best ! Just keep an open mind.

Mikie9

Good luck Suekie! You will survive, I promise.

Carlotta

I hope it really clicks for you and congratulations for being very brave and facing your anxieties. You going is basically you being willing to go out of your comfort zone to be sober! That's awesome

Leana

DoPerdition

bigsombrero

You are showing some real courage. Hope it went/goes well!

Itchy

Please post back your first impressions. I think everybody is surprised that everyone is pretty much normal, we all don't look like the description of Aqualung's character by Jethro Tull. No one tries to admonish or brainwash you, and they are not all stuffed shirts. Just people trying to get help, and help, with a little help from our friends.

malcolmsloan

Good for you, Suekie. Let us know how it goes for sure. I may be close behind you.

awuh1

Suekie, I'm looking forward to the scouting report.

(To everyone else, particularly if you are in the same boat. These stories almost always have a happy ending.)

Itchy

Oops! Double post!

Seiceps

Me too , good luck xx

BarbieKen

I can't wait to hear your impressions. keep coming back....it does work if you do the work. Bobbi

Ruby2

Sueki, good luck at the meeting. No one bites, I promise. At my meeting this morning someone brought in a bunch of Dunkin Munchkins to go with the coffee.

Itchy, that made me laugh with the Jethro Tull Aqualung reference. Nasty bit of work.

Suekie

At first I felt very awkward and uncomfortable. It was a tight group of about 15-20 women, of all ages. I did see one girl I recognized from High School, but we never really crossed paths and I doubt she recognized me. It's been close to 20 years, after all.

I was quiet. I felt like everyone was looking at me, judging me (I feel that often and deep down I know it's mostly in my head). People went out of their way to talk to me and were very nice. One lady came up and asked for my phone number. Another asked if I had the big book and when I said no she made me wait at the end of the meeting to give me one. Another woman told me she liked my sweater. I'm not used to interacting with strangers (willingly) and it was awkward, but nice at the same time.

They didn't have welcome chips, just 30 days. I was a little disappointed in that because for some reason I really want a chip. I guess I will just have to wait for my 30 day.

A lot of people shared. I chose not to today. I have a hard enough time sitting in the room silently, telling myself not to get up and run out.

I will go back next Sunday.

Thank you all for giving me the courage to go. I stepped WAY out of my comfort zone tonight, and for that, I feel happy.

Seiceps

Thanks for posting. Well done for doing it. I'm off in a couple of hours for first time too. I'm nervous but yr post helped

chaili05

Suekie, that is awesome! Be proud of yourself for going. Also, remember that it only gets better from here You've already been before so now you can walk in with the hard part already completed!