dontjudge123

Hi all

I am 23, and I fear I have become an alcoholic. On the face of things to my family I have done well, I have a fantastic job, I earn more then I could hope for, and my family are overall proud of me.

The reality is I drink heavily the second I get home. 2 bottle of wine a night is usual for me to deal with the stress, my liver area even feels blotted and has done for the past year (I don't dare go to the doctors incase I find out I have severe liver damage).

I have tried and tried to stop drinking, but I say, the weekends don't count, that was a tough day you deserve one. All of a sudden I am back to square one.

I have drank since I was 18, quite heavily. I was severely assaulted and drink to numb the fear I have of living scared.

I am scared, I think I have given myself severe liver damage (I just self diagnose online), the amount of times I wake up and am scared of texts I have sent to my family is getting to much.

I am sorry if this sounds like non-logical 'jibberice', I just need to get it off my chest.

PurpleKnight

Welcome to the Forum, nope all makes sense!!

You'll find a lot of support here, are you intending to make a start at being sober?

dontjudge123

I would like to manage my drink, but I think I'm past being able to do that and sober is the only option

Anna

Welcome!

Alcoholics cannot moderate their drinking, as much as we'd like to.

I'm glad you found us.

Dee74

welcome dontjudge123
What you said not only made sense, but was familiar to me.

Gradually my solution became my main problem.

Its good you realise that - this is a good place to be.

D

KateL

I've done all that and the texts and phone calls give you the fear as soon as you wake up, horrid. Totally understand. Sounds like moderation would be a bit difficult for you. Good luck and keep posting. xxx

least

You can quit drinking but you have to want to be sober more than you want to drink. That's the key.


I'm glad you found us and joined the family.

malcolmsloan

Welcome Dontjudge. From what I've experienced, there is no judgement here, and you experience is so familiar to many of us, I'm sure. This is a great place for support and encouragement. Glad to have you.

Hevyn

Pleased to meet you dontjudge. This is the best place to be - you're never alone.

I tried to manage my drinking - thought if I used enough willpower I could do it. My best plans to have 'one or two' always failed. I drank until I was drunk every time. It led me into some dangerous situations & ruined my health. This doesn't have to happen to you. It feels so good to be free of it. Glad you joined us.