Flying4Life

Good morning everyone!

It feels so good to be here and be sober. I have so much more energy and drive when I am not drinking or suffering from a hangover. It is amazing what you can accomplish sober when compared to drinking! What are you doing because of your sobriety?

pumpkin1

Isn't it wonderful! I'm so thankful I'm not feeling sick and shameful today. The whole day is before me. I have a big smile on my face and more importantly my soul is calm instead of tortured. Life feels good!

13unluckyforsom

Maybe I'm the odd one out but I seem to really be struggling to get up and go do anything lol I feel better physically sober and I guess mentally too but I cannot get motivated seriously lol compared to my productivity as an alcoholic - I am on level 2 compared to level 10 when I was drunk.

Not sure what its about but there's probably a reason.

alphaomega

Me too 13.

For the first 3.5 weeks I ran around like someone had a firecracker up my pertoosie.

Now I'm just, meh.

TexasMichael

I'm at 171 days and whatever I do I feel so much better doing it.

The depression and anxiety is fading.

Some days I'm motivated, some days I'm not.

When I'm motivated I get a lot done.

When I'm not motivated I rest better than I have in years.

To me it all seems to be part of the healing process from decades of alcohol abuse.

Wish I had listened to myself 20 years ago.

13unluckyforsom

Maybe that's what it is - healing lol feels crap whatever it is!

I hate this forcing myself to do things feeling cos I'm not generally lazy and I want things done but can't do it lol

jaynie04

AO & 13...I am struggling with "meh-ness" too. I had a 4 day window of amazing energy 2 weeks ago and am still trying to figure out what I did differently. I feel guilty complaining because I have only had 2 really bad days of cravings....so far.

I am so used to morphing my reality with chemicals when I would feel this way. I keep imaging my little brain waiting for the little wheelbarrow of booze to get the engine revved up. Only no little wheelbarrow is showing up brain.....sorry.

So I am trying not to freak about my meh-ness. The other day I jumped around and just yelled out "blah blah blah" to try to shake it out of my system. Note: didn't work, save your energy (and your dignity).

Imabuleva

I have plans to start working out (CrossFit) and eating as healthy as possible. Also relearning all of the physics and engineering I forgot or didn't care about from my college years because I was too worried about catching a buzz (somehow I managed to graduate). That's going to help me immensely at work.

I'm only on day 2 though, so I'm mostly taking it easy this weekend. Working out starts next weekend.

alphaomega

I was so low yesterday and the day before I thought, in earnest, I was having some sort of psychotic break or that I has some terminal disease and I was done for.

You know what I did ? I rested. I took time off, shut off the phone, and rested. I didn't pump myself full of coffee, or take anything for the uncomfortableness in my body. Not even a Tylenol (and I had cramps from hell). I ate greens, fruit, lemon water and hormone free lean beef. I slept. I wept. I ached. I panicked. I shook and wretched from fear and pure exhaustion. I reached out to those I know have my back, and told them the truth. I simply could not function in a normal manner.

And then, just like that, it lifts.

Be well.

hypochondriac

That was exactly my experience too. Mine lasted a while though and I think some of it was depression and some of it was from a thyroid problem too which seemed to just have bad timing. Maybe a trip to the doctor would be a good idea if you keep feeling this way. Sometimes we can be deficient in some vitamins too.

13unluckyforsom

Lol ok I will save my dignity - just for once I'm glad someone done the stupid thing before me haha! I understand what your saying - I think my body and brains waiting on the exaggerated adrenaline that comes with a hangover and its not showing up so my body and brain are a bit like 'what the effff?' Lol