Just thought I'd share something
Just thought I'd share something
8 months ago, I was drinking everyday, I drank even if I didn't want to. I drank if I was sick with the flu. I drank when I was on meds because it made it better. I drank when my boyfriend didn't want me to drink. I was going down hill and fast. I was mean, violent and didn't care who I hurt when I was drinking. My brother and my boyfriend always got the worst of my drunken rage.
8 months ago today was the last time I had a drink and all that negativity that was in my life is gone. I haven't gotten into any fights, I have a better relationship with my family and bf and I've reconnected with friends that I had abandoned.
8 months ago I wanted to end my life because I didn't know what else to do. Sobering up didn't seem like an option or a possibility. I felt trapped behind liquid bars. I was surrounded by alcohol bc I allowed it to do so. I allowed it to take over my mind and body.
8 months later I feel free, I'm happy in my sobriety. It wasn't easy in the first few months, I isolated myself and was in depression. So I snapped myself out of it. I didn't have my drunken friends around to help me justify my cry baby behavior. I don't pity myself anymore like I used to it don't use myself pity to manipulate others into giving me beer neither.
I'm lined up for a job, I'll be getting training and helping children with autism. I'm finding potential I never knew I had. I'll be helping people instead of hurting or using them. I just want to say thanks to everyone here at SR for helping me in my earlier months. I was in a bad place before I found this forum and I think it saved me. Thanks to everyone who takes the time to read my super long post. I hope everyone finds their way to happiness. <3
8 months ago today was the last time I had a drink and all that negativity that was in my life is gone. I haven't gotten into any fights, I have a better relationship with my family and bf and I've reconnected with friends that I had abandoned.
8 months ago I wanted to end my life because I didn't know what else to do. Sobering up didn't seem like an option or a possibility. I felt trapped behind liquid bars. I was surrounded by alcohol bc I allowed it to do so. I allowed it to take over my mind and body.
8 months later I feel free, I'm happy in my sobriety. It wasn't easy in the first few months, I isolated myself and was in depression. So I snapped myself out of it. I didn't have my drunken friends around to help me justify my cry baby behavior. I don't pity myself anymore like I used to it don't use myself pity to manipulate others into giving me beer neither.
I'm lined up for a job, I'll be getting training and helping children with autism. I'm finding potential I never knew I had. I'll be helping people instead of hurting or using them. I just want to say thanks to everyone here at SR for helping me in my earlier months. I was in a bad place before I found this forum and I think it saved me. Thanks to everyone who takes the time to read my super long post. I hope everyone finds their way to happiness. <3
Congrats on 8 months Ya I think i am in the self pity phase myself .. Glad to hear it is just a phase; least I hope for me it is lol I am only 35+ days (stopped counting) But I do mentally feel better.. thanx for Sharing ..
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What a great story about struggling in sobriety. I learned that there are peaks and valleys in redemption, success and failure. Just like a large part of the rest of the world was experiencing while I languished in my stupor.
Congratulations!!
For some reason your post made me think of a Dr. Suess book about drinking.
I drank with my cat
I drank in a hat
I drank it with pop
I drank it non-stop
I used to drink every day
but I will not drink today
For some reason your post made me think of a Dr. Suess book about drinking.
I drank with my cat
I drank in a hat
I drank it with pop
I drank it non-stop
I used to drink every day
but I will not drink today
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