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Originally Posted by Acheleus 
So I drank because I did not do well in my class that I took last month. I'm not really sure what is wrong with me. Today is a new day and I will try again to maintain my sobriety. 
You drank because you are an alcoholic and your AV used that situation to talk you into drinking. You have been hinting at relapsing quite a bit and whether it was there for you subconsciously or it's the laws of attractions at work you were ready for a relapse.
http://www.soberrecovery.com/forums/...out-drink.html
Once you come to term that you are an alcoholic and can never pick up a drink no matter what and that it is what it is, you will stand a good chance at long term sobriety. Until then, you will keep slipping anytime life throws something at you and the AV can use it as an amunition.
Anyway, it is good that you came back
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Ach - it happens. Don't dwell on it. Obviously it wasn't a fabulous experience of you would not be here and you would be drinking instead.
This is a marathon, not a sprint. So you fell. Stand up, start running the race again and don't look back. Beating yourself up will not help at all. Just do all that you can to make sure it doesn't happen again and move on.
I am still very proud of your progress and continue to root for you!!
This is a marathon, not a sprint. So you fell. Stand up, start running the race again and don't look back. Beating yourself up will not help at all. Just do all that you can to make sure it doesn't happen again and move on.
I am still very proud of your progress and continue to root for you!!
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No need to dwell on it, Acheleus. But it is understandable if you are a little disappointed. Chalk it up to learning experience. That is all we can do really with a relapse, right? Great that you are keeping your appt with your counselor tomorrow. Pick yourself right back up, and maybe determine within yourself what not to do next time you feel these urges.
All is not lost. You've done lots of work that still counts for a lot
All is not lost. You've done lots of work that still counts for a lot
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Hey Acheleus...awww
Well, you have been hangin' by your fingernails for awhile so I can't say I'm shocked beyond belief here : ) Are you referring to the Celexa making you feel bad? Anti depressants usually take a couple weeks to get any affect. (shrugs) but hey...you know how you feel right?
I know that I had a really hard time yesterday...and yup, all it takes is an instant to make a wrong decision. I could've lost my sobriety yesterday... but I didn't. I made it through by a hair. And you know what, I woke up this morning thinking..yesterday was hard...but I built up some emotional muscle there.
As noted by others, please don't blame anything other than you were defeated in that "moment"...but saddle back up again...this is a process and not an event.
Well, you have been hangin' by your fingernails for awhile so I can't say I'm shocked beyond belief here : ) Are you referring to the Celexa making you feel bad? Anti depressants usually take a couple weeks to get any affect. (shrugs) but hey...you know how you feel right?
I know that I had a really hard time yesterday...and yup, all it takes is an instant to make a wrong decision. I could've lost my sobriety yesterday... but I didn't. I made it through by a hair. And you know what, I woke up this morning thinking..yesterday was hard...but I built up some emotional muscle there.
As noted by others, please don't blame anything other than you were defeated in that "moment"...but saddle back up again...this is a process and not an event.
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