skatebowls

My day was going awesome, I drank a bunch of coffee before seeing my psychologist and was in a real good talkative mood, stopped at the apple store and felt on top of the world. Had 2 pale ale's at the B-spot restaurant and felt okay after that. Then I cracked a Red Bull and seriously felt the biggest piece of sh*t, like a bum. I just felt so, lonely and just, like a homeless person looking at all the rich people walking by. I've had this before when drinking, all the sudden I feel like a scumbag piece of sh*t who should be asking for change. What the hell is this? I didn't feel this until I took a sip of my Red Bull. Is this the alcohol talking? What made this happen all the sudden, especially right after having a Red Bull? I'm sick of f*cking drinking, it tastes like a$$ and all it does is bring me down. I seriously don't know why I sabotage myself. How could I go from feeling like the king of the world to the lowest piece of sh*t ever?

Bruce292

Welcome and thank you for posting.

I understand what it's like to feel great one minute then it all folds in on itself the next. It's like the waves just crash. One of the benefits I found with sobriety is that I'm much more level than I used to be. I have far fewer super highs and super lows.

For whatever reason Red Bull has always made me feel awful but I'm probably in the minority there because so many people like it.

Hang in there. Keep posting.

Dee74

I used to blame everything else but the obvious skatebowls.

I reckon it wasn't the red bull, skatebowls, it was the 2 pale ales before hand...for guys like us drinking again sets us off on the emotional rollercoaster.

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gigi123

In the last year of my serious drinking, I too was plagued by feelings of shame, remorse and guilt. I felt worthless and sh&*tty. Heck, I drank expensive substances with alcohol even though I live less than a block away from liquor stores. Why? Because my self worth was short, I felt I deserved to feel bad and didn't even deserve real alcohol. Alcohol sure screws with the mind.

All my slips have been accompanied by after-feelings of WTF was I thinking???

Forgot to add, you will feel better about yourself once the alcohol leaves your system. I can attest to that

least

How badly do you want to quit drinking? And what changes are you willing to make to stay sober? If you stop drinking you may not feel like poop so much, might bring a little sunshine into your life. But you've got to stop drinking!

Bubovski

Alcohol in its own right is dangerous enough without messing round with other drinks.
The more messing the more possibility of weird symptoms.

skatebowls

Yeah, I know. I just feel so lonely without alcohol. I feel like I constantly need to surround myself with sober friends and meetings. Ugh it's 10 pm and the only thing I can think about is a cold one. I gotta change everything about myself, including the music I listen to and what not. Thanks for being my friend everyone.

Hevyn

Hi skatebowls. We're so glad you're here.

The early days are rough - our emotions are all over the place. Don't expect to feel this anxious & confused forever! Everything gets better as you begin to heal and get some sober time behind you. We really do learn to live again in a new way. It's all worth it, we promise.