jstar

I want to stop this insanity but at the same time I can't. fml

iwanthealth

talk to us

Mizzuno

Are you alright? The insanity of drinking?

Ptcapote

What's up JStar? Did you make it to a meeting yesterday?

What's got you feeling so bad right now? You're always so helpful to others who post on here...so let us help this time.

((Hugs))

Dee74

Our addiction loves to tell us we can't - but we can.
There's so much support here and elsewhere jstar - why not use it?

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jstar

I use the support all the time and it totally helps me. I just can't seem to win over my thinking am I the hopeless one the bb talks about? I just want to GET IT

Nighthawk8820

you need to get some outside help, because whatever you are currently doing, is not working. I have seen a few posts like this from you now, and I can tell you want to change, but dont have the right tools. I dont think you can do it on your own, you need to seek outside council.

jstar

I feel like such a fricken loser right now.

I feel like I've had my chance. .I went inpatient last year. I hate myself right now

upandup

You're still breathing, where there's life there's hope.

Dee74

If we only had one chance, most of us simply would not be here jstar - including me.

Stop beating yourself up - that's wasted energy - your addiction loves it, but outside of that it's not doing you much good.

Obviously you need to regroup and redraw your battle plan - ok...so, save your energy for that

If you never give up you can never be beaten

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jstar

I don't know what my problem is. ..I have heard it all. ..have had glimpses of sobriety. Wtf I can't function. I can't decide. God I feel like ...I don't know ..like nothing

jstar

I love you dee you are the greatest

Soberpotamus

It's true what Dee says... You really can't be beaten if you never give up! Keep at it. Try something different. Maybe a revised plan. Try the very thing you feel uncomfortable doing... For me that was face to face meetings. That was the hardest but I did it.

You can do it!!

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Dee74

the moneys in the post jstar

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FeenixxRising

No, you're not, no one is hopeless.

jstar

I'm just crying. Im so upset with myself. SR is and has been my place of honesty. I don't want to be an alcoholic and I know I am. .
So lame I know im sorry

Dee74

noone wants to be an alcoholic - but you can be a recovered alcoholic - I reckon that's actually pretty cool, jstar

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Nuudawn

Aw sweetie..it's painful to hear your defeat and self loathing right now. Dee is right..self loathing and darkness is where your addiction feeds and chuckles with glee. Stop it. Addiction does not mean you are a bad person or weak of character. Amazingly intelligent, wonderful, talented, kind and glorious people have been afflicted by it.

Nighthawk is right. You need outside help. I am not familiar with you..but judging by your tone ..its arsekicking you. Go to AA, talk to an addicition counsellor, a doctor, rehab..do something different than what you're doing..it's not working honey.

jstar

I know it's not working. I went to inpatient and outpatient. ..I've been going to AA at least 5 times a week or more. ..I can't even type I'm sorry.

Dee74

I've never met anyone who exhausted all their avenues jstar - never

If you've never tried a sponsor, maybe nows the time, or if you have, maybe it's time for a different sponsor?

If there are stresses and strains in your life that seem to lead you back to drinking, maybe it's time to do something about those stresses and strains....or if that's not practicable, at least do something about your reaction to them?

there's always more doors to open, my friend - this is not the end

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