singlemom3

Things have been going well lately(besides this whole thing with my kids) and it seems that I am waiting for something to go wrong. Is this insane? Can't just accept the fact that things are working out for the better. Things have not been good in so long its weird when things are running smoothly. Yes, I am insane lol

splendra

Who would blame you for feeeling this way? But, I believe you probably need to get to alanon and let them guide you in a recovery program for yourself. Read the "power post here in the Alanon forum and keep posting it will get better for you. God Bless you.

sunflowergal29

Insane? Nah- just used to the constant drama! Enjoy the serenity, it is oh so sweet! PS: this is how the "normal" live (or so I'm told, lol!). The longer you are in recovery, the more peaceful it gets! It is all in the way we see things.
-sfg29

BlueMoon

what helps me when i catch my self "waiting for ________ (fill in the blank)"
is to focus really really hard at *Staying in the Moment*

ALL i have control over is ME, right at this second in time -

the world could end tonite - why waste energy worrying about "what if tomorrow"???

someone please remind me that i said that, i'm sure i'll start "waiting" again as soon as i wake up

hugs,
Blue

lil'bit

Oh, I really hear you! When things go well, I find myself so unwilling to trust it... I don't want to believe it will last... and so far, I've been right. I'm really trying to appreciate things moment for moment, too -- sometimes it works, sometimes it doesn't.

sunflowergal29

I think it gets better (worrying about the drama) when we start perceiving it differently. I started thinking today about how what if this weekend ends up like the last with him? What if he goes to work on the car again and ends up drinking? And then I stopped for a second and thought, " What does that have to do with how my weekend is going to be?". Not a darn thing- I CAN be happy on my own terms. No matter what I will be ok.
What drama? I don't have to be in it anymore.
-sfg29

Gabe

Singlemom,
One of my codie tendencies (that I am currently working on) is that I often expect the worst, but rarely expect joy.
Interesting thing...when I consciously expect good things to happen...they do.
Who knew?
I hope things continue to go well for you and your family.
Gabe

Magichappens

Amen!