Unbelievable anger
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Unbelievable anger
When I wake up the very first thing that goes through my mind is 'I f'ing hate you'.
Not a good first thought.
My first thought used to be him, or something not unpleasant.
But now as soon as I wake up the anger is there waiting for me.
It's at its worst in the morning, even though it's pretty constant all day.
I picture myself punching him, and slamming him up against a wall.
I'm just so mad that he didn't care enough about us to work to save our relationship.
I'm so angry that he turned into someone I didn't know because of cocaine.
I'm so angry that he so blatantly disrespected me this past weekend, made me look like a fool for even being with him, then lied to my face and expected me to believe him, then told me we were through because he couldn't handle me constantly bitching at him and not trusting him - neither of which was true.
I caught him in a lie, buying coke - handing someone money and pocketing coke - and he told me 'it wasn't for me!' but then I found the bag in his pocket after he passed out - woke him up and confronted him.
He didn't intend to buy coke, it found him, he was set up, it was Joe's fault for leaving him holding it.
He said the guy tried to rip him off and he almost got into a fight.
He was yelling at the guy when I walked away.
He was angry at me because I 'didn't have his back'.
I hadn't left his house when we got home because I'd had a few drinks and didn't want to drive.
He said 'I thought you were leaving.'
He wanted me to leave.
He didn't care if I drove drunk.
And then he snorted it right in front of me, and went and watched porn on his iPhone in the bathroom.
I'm so. Incredibly. Angry.
And disgusted.
Not a good first thought.
My first thought used to be him, or something not unpleasant.
But now as soon as I wake up the anger is there waiting for me.
It's at its worst in the morning, even though it's pretty constant all day.
I picture myself punching him, and slamming him up against a wall.
I'm just so mad that he didn't care enough about us to work to save our relationship.
I'm so angry that he turned into someone I didn't know because of cocaine.
I'm so angry that he so blatantly disrespected me this past weekend, made me look like a fool for even being with him, then lied to my face and expected me to believe him, then told me we were through because he couldn't handle me constantly bitching at him and not trusting him - neither of which was true.
I caught him in a lie, buying coke - handing someone money and pocketing coke - and he told me 'it wasn't for me!' but then I found the bag in his pocket after he passed out - woke him up and confronted him.
He didn't intend to buy coke, it found him, he was set up, it was Joe's fault for leaving him holding it.
He said the guy tried to rip him off and he almost got into a fight.
He was yelling at the guy when I walked away.
He was angry at me because I 'didn't have his back'.
I hadn't left his house when we got home because I'd had a few drinks and didn't want to drive.
He said 'I thought you were leaving.'
He wanted me to leave.
He didn't care if I drove drunk.
And then he snorted it right in front of me, and went and watched porn on his iPhone in the bathroom.
I'm so. Incredibly. Angry.
And disgusted.
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