Mountainmanbob

Mountainmanbob

Mountainmanbob

You said you were done

you said you were through

please understand and see

the poison that's killing you.

Liveitwell

The Codie me would have sent this to my then husband. Boy did I try to show him by giving him books, my love letters, etc to make him SEE. Why couldn't he see he was killing his marriage and family over the years?! Total waste of my time-bc like I knew would happen he did in fact choose drinking over his wife and kids. I'm grateful however bc it set me free. Free of him. Thank you for posting MMB.

Mountainmanbob

Sober or still drinking at many times an alcoholic will look back in their life and realized that they chose booze over some of the ones that loved them. These will be humbling thoughts for the sober ones at times bringing on much sadness and reminding them of why they don't drink anymore, not wishing to add to the wreckage of their past. For the ones still drinking these thoughts will make them want to pour another drink or two -- and drink them down real fast.

MB

Liveitwell

MB-I truly don't think my ex looks back at losing me...or his kids. I truly don't think he cares that he flushed his marriage away bc of his demons. Truly-just doesbt care. Easier to just move on to someone else then fix what was so broken.

Mountainmanbob

I remind myself often that at one time I also ran with the liquid devil (demons).

The Book tells me, "stop your sinning or something worse may happen to you."

I believe that simple passage and wish to not be tempted by the liquid devil or (demons) today.

Although I have not had any desire to drink for over 8 years
it truly does seem to be One Day At A Time -- I (we) don't sin.

MB

slowclimb

That personified my AH....compelling - but yeah a bit sad. He's somewhere right now that he has a better chance at getting the message. Hopefully he will.

But not mine...

Thanks for sharing MB

Mountainmanbob

Hope that you are ok today Forourgirls

M-Bob

Liveitwell

M-Bob. It is well with my soul.

firebolt

FOG - LOVE that song. So did my dad

Mountainmanbob

So sad to say but, I have seen this played out over and over again.


It will happen sooner than you think
this will all come to it's ends
the poison that's killing you
will take away loved one's and friends.

MB

tomsteve

reminds me of words to an ozzy song- demon alcohol:


I'm sick and tired of your excuses
Can't deal with living anymore
I'll give you reasons to continue
While you lie writhing on the floor

I'll wash away your lies
And have you hyptotized
There'll be no compromise today
I'll share your life of shame
I think you know my name
I'll introduce myself today

I'm the demon alcohol (demon alcohol)
I'll get you

If you could deal with your reflection
I'm sure you'd see into my eyes
There'll be no need for resurrection
Let's drink to people of the lies

Although that one's too much
You know ten's not enough
There'll be no compromise today
I'll watch you lose control
Consume your very soul
I'll introduce myself today

I'm the demon alcohol (demon alcohol)
Ha ha, demon alcohol (demon alcohol)
Let's party

I'm sick and tired of resolutions
You've quit me time and time again
Don't speak of suicide solutions
You took my hand, I'm here to stay

This time it's you or me
I'll never set you free
There'll be no compromise today
So satisfy your lust
Too much can't be enough
I'll introduce myself today

I'm the demon alcohol (the demon alcohol)
Ha ha, demon alcohol, (the demon alcohol)
Let's party

Liveitwell

^ wow.
Only thing I have to add is that no matter my anger, disgust, etc I recall the number one feeling underneath it all throughout the years was the helplessness-it's awful watching someone you love self destruct. And knowing it had nothing to do with me and it wasn't my battle. Awful. I wouldn't wish it on anyone. It hurt so bad.

Mountainmanbob

Yes, I think at times how much it must have hurt the ones close to me as I refused to see the light while running with the liquid devil. Grateful that the blinders were finally removed.

A man that I mentor is married to a lady in her early fifties who is really married to the bottle. So much drama at their house. Cops every few days, hospital visits, rehab, etc etc etc.. I have talked with her on a couple of occasions but, it seems that all I can do at this point in time is to pray for her.

Bob

Liveitwell

That's what I do-I pray for him, still. I always will.

Mountainmanbob

I know that prayer can work for my mother prayed for me to get sober for many, many years.

MB

Eauchiche

Me too. I used to like to get my addicts liquored up so I could control them, then work like Hell to get through to them.
"All have sinned and come short of the Glory of God."

Liveitwell

We each were sick , in our own respective ways.

Mountainmanbob

Yes, due to the fall we are all constantly falling short.

I do thank God that I'm sober today for when I was drinking,
I,
with not much of a conscious fell short way more often.

Grateful for a sober healthy conscious today.

A nice sober day wished for all,
MB