I almost relapsed today.
Member
Thread Starter
Join Date: Aug 2011
Location: Portland, OR
Posts: 169
I almost relapsed today.
I am not even sure why. I usually know my triggers: gambling, boredom, insomnia, anxiety, maybe a couple others I can't think of.
I had an appointment today at 2pm with an addiction specialist, did part of my assessment to see what course of treatment will be best in the future. Everything seemed great, it was a really nice day, I felt good after the meeting.
But when I got out, I really wanted a beer. Not to get drunk, just to have a beer. I kept thinking "Crap, I could have just ONE." When I get beer, I usually grab 1 or 2 of the 24oz cans of High Gravity "knock you on your ass" beer. I was thinking, "I'll just have something light, maybe an English ale with a lower ABV, something I can sip on while I have dinner."
I actually went to the store, grabbed the fixings for some meals, and I was in the beer aisle holding a bottle of Guinness in my hand. I read the label for a bit, and put it back on the shelf, grabbed a soda pop and got the f*** out of there.
It's like the world is against me, lol. As soon as I got home, my roommate was headed down to the store to do some grocery shopping. He owes me 10 bucks, and I've been letting him bum cigarettes of me for a day or 2. As he left he said "Thanks for letting me bum smokes, I'll grab you a 6 pack as a token of appreciation."
I declined.
The only way I managed to keep away from this sh** today, was to think: would I rather post on SR tonight "Sorry guys, I relapsed" or "Hey, I stayed strong." Thank you so much for being here, SR community. You kept me sober today, and I'm grateful to you, and proud of myself.
I had an appointment today at 2pm with an addiction specialist, did part of my assessment to see what course of treatment will be best in the future. Everything seemed great, it was a really nice day, I felt good after the meeting.
But when I got out, I really wanted a beer. Not to get drunk, just to have a beer. I kept thinking "Crap, I could have just ONE." When I get beer, I usually grab 1 or 2 of the 24oz cans of High Gravity "knock you on your ass" beer. I was thinking, "I'll just have something light, maybe an English ale with a lower ABV, something I can sip on while I have dinner."
I actually went to the store, grabbed the fixings for some meals, and I was in the beer aisle holding a bottle of Guinness in my hand. I read the label for a bit, and put it back on the shelf, grabbed a soda pop and got the f*** out of there.
It's like the world is against me, lol. As soon as I got home, my roommate was headed down to the store to do some grocery shopping. He owes me 10 bucks, and I've been letting him bum cigarettes of me for a day or 2. As he left he said "Thanks for letting me bum smokes, I'll grab you a 6 pack as a token of appreciation."
I declined.
The only way I managed to keep away from this sh** today, was to think: would I rather post on SR tonight "Sorry guys, I relapsed" or "Hey, I stayed strong." Thank you so much for being here, SR community. You kept me sober today, and I'm grateful to you, and proud of myself.
Currently Active Users Viewing this Thread: 1 (0 members and 1 guests)
