Els

Ive been struggling trying ti get set up in a new town because I was forced to leave my small town, because of an ex. And it seems no matter what I do, i hit the road blocks. I have been in relaps mode for the last 3 weeks and Im just tired iof fighting and keep thinking that is it wiorth staying sober though all this, because of all the emotions that are showing up.

lost and confused...

2granddaughters

Are you going to meetings, El ?

All the best.

Bob R

Els

ya I have been and it just adds a whole new stressor had a spopncer just drop me for no reason, and just feel out of place there now

2granddaughters

I'd be doing all I could to get feeling at home at the meetings. They will save your life.

All the best.

Bob R

Els

thanks will keep trying just getting discouraged is all

robgt350

Els
i changed my drinking habits from a few with the guys, after hard day at work to daily and binging due to emotions. like you was from the opposite gender. i almost wanted to move out of town. i was sort of afraid to go out in public. i drank terrible for a few years and tried several times to stop but failed each time. finally i had enough and went to therapy for my underlining cause. it did not stop my from drinking or even slow it down but allowed me to have a greater understanding of my emotions, past, and areas where i need self improvements. i even went to AA and that did not completily stop me. i was finally able to stop with a combination of things. i am sober 14 weeks and 6 days now.

soberlicious

Els...how are you doing with the loss of your partner? Have you thought about some grief counseling?

Els

i havent really even thought about grief counceklling, been too focused on try to find a spot to live.

soberlicious

Yes, finding a place to stay is #1 right now, but please try to secure some counseling. You have been through a lot.