Bruno1979

Hi guys,

2 weeks ago I had a relapse. The morning after was full of the normal guilt and self hatred as you can imagine.

However, I did feel a feeling that I had not felt before. It was a kind of relief that I had relapsed. It was as if I had been building up to it and it was only a matter of time before the relapse occurred. I had spent over 3 months kidding myself that one day I could return to drinking again, and 2 weeks ago I did return to the booze.

The relief feeling though was the fact that it was confirmed to me mentally that my drinking days were over forever. When I started on day one the time before this, the plan was never to ditch the booze forever. It was more of an experiment with myself to see how long I could go.

Anyway,

I'm off to bed now after another lovely sober day.

Thank you all for your input to the forum and for any replies that you have made to my threads.

Here's to a sober lifetime,

Cheers,

Bruno.

aasharon90

It is a good feeling to know we don't
have to go back out and drink again
a day at a time. It is also good to make
that acknowledgement that yes we have
a drinking problem and as long as I
incorperate those useful tools and knowledge
of a recovery program in all aspects of
my life I dont have to drink today.

So many that have gotten a taste of sobriety
want to go back out and do some experimenting
in control drinking or drugs to eventually
come back in or dont make it back to recovery
at all.

So Im glad you made it back.

Bruno1979

So true,

Thanks very much.

Bruno.

Hollyanne

Good man Bruno!

Dee74

good to see you back Bruno

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Spinach

Well done, for realising that big change, it's always good when you realise that your acting ahead of the curve.
John.

quitforme79

Good for you Bruno. Like you, the last time I quit I kept fantasizing I could drink again "someday". I didn't want to accept that I was powerless over alcohol. My last relapse however proved that to me and I have been sober since. It's not always easy but it's an amazing feeling to be sure about something. When I was drinking, I wasn't sure about anything

TypicalPisces

I understand that complete, Bruno. Welcome back.

Fallow

It was the same deal for me. The relief of knowing exactly where I stand with alcohol is tangible. After my last relapse and waking up after yet another blackout bender I knew I was finished for good. That idea has only gotten stronger as Ive gone along this time.

Cleopatra1

well done bruno,,great post!!!
i too had a wee slip in jan,,and i think i needed to have that wee test,,to save me and prove to myself that i dont drink,,and its done me the world of good ,,imo.
i am now nrly 4 mnths sober ,,and i love love LOVE it,,,that wee slip taught me more cos i had it,,than if i didnt xx
im not ever gonna drink again,,cos i just aint,fullstop,
keep it up hunny,yr doin just fabtabulous xxx
x lv cleo xxxxx

hypochondriac

Glad you're back on track Bruno x