peanut44

Hit a rough spot, got over stressed, let my guard down and i blew it...

Starting over.

Will i ever find a way to be happy without pills??

Dee74

Many of us had false starts
this isn't a one time pass or fail deal, Peanut

look at what happened, learn from it, think about what else you need to do, then move on and start again - you can do this

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ReadyAndAble

Of course! You'll be way better off without them, I guarantee it.

Think about it—those pills aren't making you happy at all. It's hard to see right now, I know. I was the same way when I quit drinking; I thought life would be sooooo difficult without my bottle. Now I see I was still under the spell of my addiction, tricked into mistaking the cause of my unhappiness for the cure. But trust me, you'll be amazed how liberating it feels to finally escape addiction. So many doors can start to open after that! These early days are just an investment—I bet it starts to pay off in a big way sooner than you think. You can do it!

peanut44

Ready and able

I want so much to feel exactly what you are saying!!

Your words are exactly what i needed to read!!

Thank you

EternalQ

You could try asking the question this way:
"Will I ever be happy WITH pills?"

Something I said to myself over and over at the beginning was:

"EQ, you already know what your life is like WITH alcohol, why not find out what your life is like WITHOUT alcohol?"

I said that question to myself a lot in the early months when I questioned if I wanted to continue with this recovery thing.

Even my Addictive Voice, clever as it was, could never think of a comeback for that one.

I hope this helps and I am glad you posted. Please take care.

instant

All you have to do is learn from your experience, and get engaged in your recovery again.

peanut44

All good advice....Thank you everyone=)

So true, depressed and struggling when i don't have them and they make me sick, frustrated, impatient, bitchy, foggy and dumbed down when i do take them.... WTF??

I forget now but why do i look forward to taking them...?

THANKS GUYS!!!!