day 2 - i could use a word of encouragement now!
day 2 - i could use a word of encouragement now!
i made it through yesterday -- it's been about 42 hours since my last drink. but i'm dreading today, and having a lot of thoughts i know are bad like "if i could do without for one day, i must not be an alcoholic, so that means i can drink" and planning how & when to start again (next week, a lunch date with an old friend i haven't seen in ages, we always have wine together). i'm trying not to think about the future and just think about getting through today.
unfortunately i have money in my pocket and a long time alone in my office before i have to see anyone... my favorite way to drink. it's a rainy day and there's a liquor store across the street....
unfortunately i have money in my pocket and a long time alone in my office before i have to see anyone... my favorite way to drink. it's a rainy day and there's a liquor store across the street....
Here are the only words of encouragement I can offer you. Remember when you were younger, those times before the drink. The less hazy times when everything seemed like it was it's own little miracle. Where you could look out at the sea and wonder who put it there and why it was the way it was. You can have those times again. You can have a clear mind, you can have a clear conscience. You can truly live again, as long as you don't pick up another drink.
I wish you the best of luck courage. Keep on fighting. It gets better, you just have to fight for the right to live.
Natom.
I wish you the best of luck courage. Keep on fighting. It gets better, you just have to fight for the right to live.
Natom.
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Hi, Courage. Welcome to SR!
You are doing right focusing on today, not on far away future. Your addictive voice is still strong and loud, and it will do all the tricks possible to convince you to drink. Do not give in and do not listen to it. It's hard when you are lonely and liquor store is across the street, and weather is gloomy, but it will be much worse with a drink. So stick here, on SR. Read posts - you'll find a lot of different stories. You won't be alone here - there is a lot of support, encouragement and great people.
Stay strong - rain is not forever. And, one of the most important things - stay away from the first drink by any means necessary! It's how all this drinking hell starts.
Take care and keep posting.
You are doing right focusing on today, not on far away future. Your addictive voice is still strong and loud, and it will do all the tricks possible to convince you to drink. Do not give in and do not listen to it. It's hard when you are lonely and liquor store is across the street, and weather is gloomy, but it will be much worse with a drink. So stick here, on SR. Read posts - you'll find a lot of different stories. You won't be alone here - there is a lot of support, encouragement and great people.
Stay strong - rain is not forever. And, one of the most important things - stay away from the first drink by any means necessary! It's how all this drinking hell starts.
Take care and keep posting.
thanks, midnight & natom. my mind is definitely my worst enemy --i use alcohol to shut it down. i started drinking pretty young & most of my memories -- good & bad -- involve drinking. it's like i'll have to start from scratch. but i'm going to keep trying! reading postings on this forum helps a lot.
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all i can tell you is i never solved any of my problems by drinking or using. if i drank or used the problems were still in my face. use all of your assets to help with the addiction. remeber the only one that can make you drink is you..
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Courage2
I know what you are going through, I'm at Day 2 also. I'm not craving alcohol at the moment as it is the middle of the night here and I can't sleep, but earlier on I would have loved a glass of wine. Instead I ate a lot of rubbish and drank lots of tea and water....it worked.
I know what you are going through, I'm at Day 2 also. I'm not craving alcohol at the moment as it is the middle of the night here and I can't sleep, but earlier on I would have loved a glass of wine. Instead I ate a lot of rubbish and drank lots of tea and water....it worked.
Day 2 was crap for me - I'm day 3 and it's been very good - it changes that quick and I am hoping that eventually the good days far outweigh the bad days !! Keep in there there is plenty going through exactly the same thing and between us we can beat this and get out lives and family back :-)
In my opinion, the way you should be looking at it is "I did it yesterday. I made it. Therefore I know I can do it again today. I've already proven it."
Good luck.
thanks for all the words of encouragement and wish me luck -- i'm feeling clammy and itchy and like jumping out of my skin -- i have to go give a 3.5 hour presentation now, and when that's finished BOY am i ever going to want a drink!
Day 2 was my worst. Do whatever you have to do to not drink. I personally ran a mile 8 different times that day. then took my frustrations out on a punching bag for hours, and yelled into my pillow at night. lol. Just find a way, whatever it is. It doesn't matter if it's walking laps around a neighborhood til 3am or something, just do it. Keep on fighting!!
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All the best.
Bob R
Hi courage. Good for you - coming here and sharing your feelings. I hope you won't have a setback and will continue on your path to a sober life. We know there's nothing at the bottom of that bottle for us. Nothing will be made better. You can do this.
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