An impulsive Wednesday..... a new course
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An impulsive Wednesday..... a new course
My CBT session has been cancelled so I've impulsively booked myself on a stained glass course today. Starts in 30 minutes, lasts all day. That means being with a roomful of strangers......YIKES!!!! I can feel my irrational fear/anxiety rising. Shaky and so anxious I may have a seizure (my main obsessive fear and totally irrational), a bit paranoid...everything that would normally make me want a drink. My Pavlov dog scenario!! They'll ask me what I do etc etc.....I have nothing much to say.... I just want to make some pretty things for Christmas and stained glass is a new medium for me :/
Wish me luck......have a good day everyone. If I survive, I'll see you all later xx
Wish me luck......have a good day everyone. If I survive, I'll see you all later xx
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Thank you....it was GREAT!! Lovely people, lovely old farmhouse in the middle of the countryside.....so peaceful. Had a moment when I was getting a cup of tea when I remembered the last course I went on I was drinking vodka throughout it. And smoking. Today I didn't want to but I'm now about to have supper and there's a faint voice saying that a celebratory glass (!!!!) of wine would be really nice. So I'm going to go and eat and get rid of that voice. I hope!!
Hope you're both well x
Hope you're both well x
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Thank you Fernaceman.... I only booked it this morning so I didn't have time to think or talk myself out of it! Too much time on my hands is so bad for me! I'll whip myself up in to a frenzy of anxiety!
Yes, if I keep doing things like this that challenge my 'normal' behaviour, I should gain more confidence over time. As will you x
Yes, if I keep doing things like this that challenge my 'normal' behaviour, I should gain more confidence over time. As will you x
Lol, I need to start doing productive things more "on the fly," I guess. I tend I think myself out of them and cancel all too often just because I am scared to try something new. Pretty silly...
Reminds me of being at the store...90% of the things in my cart I will put back because I think myself out of buying them by the time I get to the register...if it was a pay as you go situation I would be in trouble, LOL. Ohhhhh, me and my silly tendencies.
Reminds me of being at the store...90% of the things in my cart I will put back because I think myself out of buying them by the time I get to the register...if it was a pay as you go situation I would be in trouble, LOL. Ohhhhh, me and my silly tendencies.
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