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Day 27 SOBER
Day 27 - I am really glad I stopped drinking. I have calculated that I have not spent $250 on beer or injested 27,000 calories to date.
The mental part is getting better. I have never been a get out and do something person, but I know from experience if I just slowly ease into activites, I won't feel like I'm forcing myself.
Keeping busy cooking, reading (alot on SR as well) and doing sports and scouts with my son.
I did receive an email from my Dad's wife (he had another mini stroke a few weeks ago but is home and doing ok). He is home bound while she works. She basically told my brother and me that she was going to move north shortly to live with her son and to come see him because it would probably be the last time (they live 8 hours away). I really should, but that is a tender subject. In my mind, phoning him once a week is all I can handle. To me he is already gone. I really should be the bigger person (and probably will eventually), but just the thought makes me ill.
What's funny is that I have no desire to drink, but knowing I could numb the thoughts and escape for a few hours is tempting. But I am feeling to good and handling things fine, so the beast is sad (I think, he been pretty quiet lately).
Pretty boring stuff, but SOBER boring stuff!
Toss
The mental part is getting better. I have never been a get out and do something person, but I know from experience if I just slowly ease into activites, I won't feel like I'm forcing myself.
Keeping busy cooking, reading (alot on SR as well) and doing sports and scouts with my son.
I did receive an email from my Dad's wife (he had another mini stroke a few weeks ago but is home and doing ok). He is home bound while she works. She basically told my brother and me that she was going to move north shortly to live with her son and to come see him because it would probably be the last time (they live 8 hours away). I really should, but that is a tender subject. In my mind, phoning him once a week is all I can handle. To me he is already gone. I really should be the bigger person (and probably will eventually), but just the thought makes me ill.
What's funny is that I have no desire to drink, but knowing I could numb the thoughts and escape for a few hours is tempting. But I am feeling to good and handling things fine, so the beast is sad (I think, he been pretty quiet lately).
Pretty boring stuff, but SOBER boring stuff!
Toss
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Toss, you can do the needful, you really can. Just like staying sober, the rewards far outweigh the discomfort of the moment. I hope you find some peace with yer Pa soon.
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Originally Posted by freshstart57 
Toss, you can do the needful, you really can. Just like staying sober, the rewards far outweigh the discomfort of the moment. I hope you find some peace with yer Pa soon.
Thanks for the kind words,
Toss
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Great news on the 27 days. I behind you by a week or so. My mind is so jumbled I can't do the math! I am just moving forward and so far I'm getting somewhere. I know how you feel about your Dad. I can relate. I have no feeling one way or another about him. He lived his life without me. I adjusted to it. His final exit happened when I was a little girl.
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Originally Posted by escapist
Great news on the 27 days. I behind you by a week or so. My mind is so jumbled I can't do the math! I am just moving forward and so far I'm getting somewhere. I know how you feel about your Dad. I can relate. I have no feeling one way or another about him. He lived his life without me. I adjusted to it. His final exit happened when I was a little girl.
I told myself at 30 days I wound stop counting. The count does not matter to me (maybe in the beginning for reinforcement), it's the end goal.
Let's keep it going and thanks,
Toss
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Toss, you are doing so well! I'm glad you're feeling strong and doing nice things with your son.
You might consider that going to say good bye to your father will give you closure and it might be worth it if only for that. Seeing you will probably be a good thing for him and if you can just get through it you won't have as many issues down the road about it all. Maybe you and your brother can just go together soon so you can stop thinking about it?
You might consider that going to say good bye to your father will give you closure and it might be worth it if only for that. Seeing you will probably be a good thing for him and if you can just get through it you won't have as many issues down the road about it all. Maybe you and your brother can just go together soon so you can stop thinking about it?
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Originally Posted by FreeFall
Toss, you are doing so well! I'm glad you're feeling strong and doing nice things with your son.
You might consider that going to say good bye to your father will give you closure and it might be worth it if only for that. Seeing you will probably be a good thing for him and if you can just get through it you won't have as many issues down the road about it all. Maybe you and your brother can just go together soon so you can stop thinking about it?
You might consider that going to say good bye to your father will give you closure and it might be worth it if only for that. Seeing you will probably be a good thing for him and if you can just get through it you won't have as many issues down the road about it all. Maybe you and your brother can just go together soon so you can stop thinking about it?
Thanks for the thoughts,
Toss
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