BInge Drinker
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Join Date: Oct 2012
Location: UK
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BInge Drinker
Hello, I am hoping to find support here.
I am a 30 year old female who drinks heavily
at weekends. I last got drunk on Friday night.
I can't stop drinking once I start. I can go days
without a drink but once the weekend comes
around it's like I'm possessed. I have said and done
terrible things when I've been drunk. The feelings of
guilt, remorse and depression the next day are
horrendous and I always swear I won't do it again.
Of course I always do! I am engaged and our
wedding might bot happen if I continue. I am
amazed my fiance has forgiven me up till now.
it's easy today to say I will stop drinking when I still
feel hungover and ashamed, but by Friday I will want to
drink again. I need to stop before I ruin my life.
I am a 30 year old female who drinks heavily
at weekends. I last got drunk on Friday night.
I can't stop drinking once I start. I can go days
without a drink but once the weekend comes
around it's like I'm possessed. I have said and done
terrible things when I've been drunk. The feelings of
guilt, remorse and depression the next day are
horrendous and I always swear I won't do it again.
Of course I always do! I am engaged and our
wedding might bot happen if I continue. I am
amazed my fiance has forgiven me up till now.
it's easy today to say I will stop drinking when I still
feel hungover and ashamed, but by Friday I will want to
drink again. I need to stop before I ruin my life.
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Join Date: Jun 2012
Location: UK
Posts: 1,145
Hello Lucy and welcome to SR. You've found a great place here 
Your post reminds me a lot of myself before I quit drinking. Friday nights were horrendous - I'd either be out of my mind drunk or out of my mind thinking about being drunk. I was hungover for days after and hated myself so much for it.
It doesn't have to be that way any longer. You can be sober and live a life free from what you are feeling right now.
Wishing you all the best.
Your post reminds me a lot of myself before I quit drinking. Friday nights were horrendous - I'd either be out of my mind drunk or out of my mind thinking about being drunk. I was hungover for days after and hated myself so much for it.
It doesn't have to be that way any longer. You can be sober and live a life free from what you are feeling right now.
Wishing you all the best.
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Join Date: Oct 2012
Location: South East UK
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Hello Lucy,
When I first started drinking and subsequently using drugs my use was limited to the weekends. I would normally be pretty good throughout the week. I maybe would have had a pint or two at lunch very rarely but the majority of my drinking took place on the weekend. As soon as the whistle blew on Friday night I'd be out there getting ready to get completely annihilated. Most Fridays I would spend watching the clock, eagerly planning how I was going to reach oblivion that night. I found that this method of drinking suited me at the time but it wasn't long before it started creeping into the week.
The one or two pints I might have had with lunch were now the 2 or 3 pints I WAS having with lunch. Alcoholism and addiction are both very progressive illnesses but fortunately we can recover from these afflictions in various ways. I personally attend AA and NA meetings. However in your local area there should be various agencies that will be able to provide you with support and encouragement to help you stop drinking.
Wiltshire Pathways
here is one I found with just a quick google search. I am sure more would be available if you searched for them. Also this website also contains a huge wealth of information and resources as well as people who have experienced the same problems you have. Welcome to SR Lucy
When I first started drinking and subsequently using drugs my use was limited to the weekends. I would normally be pretty good throughout the week. I maybe would have had a pint or two at lunch very rarely but the majority of my drinking took place on the weekend. As soon as the whistle blew on Friday night I'd be out there getting ready to get completely annihilated. Most Fridays I would spend watching the clock, eagerly planning how I was going to reach oblivion that night. I found that this method of drinking suited me at the time but it wasn't long before it started creeping into the week.
The one or two pints I might have had with lunch were now the 2 or 3 pints I WAS having with lunch. Alcoholism and addiction are both very progressive illnesses but fortunately we can recover from these afflictions in various ways. I personally attend AA and NA meetings. However in your local area there should be various agencies that will be able to provide you with support and encouragement to help you stop drinking.
Wiltshire Pathways
here is one I found with just a quick google search. I am sure more would be available if you searched for them. Also this website also contains a huge wealth of information and resources as well as people who have experienced the same problems you have. Welcome to SR Lucy
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i'm a binge drinker too. sometimes it ends up becoming a daily thing also instead of just the weekends. you are very smart in seeking help before it ruins you having a wonderful wedding day (and married life after). welcome 
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Hi Lucy, I feel you in so many ways! I was a binge drinker for many years until this past year where I became a almost daily drinker, and still binge drink, but now more often. I have a gf of 11 years who has been patient with me... why, I have no freaking idea. I know I have imbarrased her, I know people wonder what a sweet girl like her is doing with an a$$ like me, but you know what she loves me, because when I am sober I am great to her! You are also lucky in that you have someone patient, but don't count on that forever, I almost got left twice already, and frankly I deserved it. She deserves better and I know it, but she sticks around I want to be the best for her also, as well as my mom... I really also want to be the best for me! I am working on 8 days so I still know how hard it is to say no from one week to the next. I feel your struggles very much so. I hope the best for you as well as myself. I know people here are very supportive of our efforts to quit, and others like us that struggle to quit. But I hope in a few years I will be like them helping others like me
I want to be the best for her also, as well as my mom... I really also want to be the best for me! I am working on 8 days so I still know how hard it is to say no from one week to the next. I feel your struggles very much so. I hope the best for you as well as myself. I know people here are very supportive of our efforts to quit, and others like us that struggle to quit. But I hope in a few years I will be like them helping others like me Member
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Join Date: Oct 2012
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Thankyou all for your replies, it's good to know that
I'm not alone. I just went shopping and some acquaintances
from the pub were there pointing and laughing at me.
I must have done something stupid on Friday night.
I don't know what and I don't want to know, I can't handle
the shame. I just don't want to feel like this anymore. Some of the things I
have done lately that I know about: fallen over and hit my head,
locked myself in a toilet and passed out, gone
missing and had everyone in the pub searching for me, verbally abused just
about everyone, collapsed in a chip shop. To name a few! I don't
want to be known as Lucy the pissed up joke, I laugh along with people
when they mention what I have done but I hate it and I really hate myself. The trouble is
I never know whether it will be the 5th drink or the 10th that will send
me into blackout but I always end up there, which is why I need to quit
completely.
I'm not alone. I just went shopping and some acquaintances
from the pub were there pointing and laughing at me.
I must have done something stupid on Friday night.
I don't know what and I don't want to know, I can't handle
the shame. I just don't want to feel like this anymore. Some of the things I
have done lately that I know about: fallen over and hit my head,
locked myself in a toilet and passed out, gone
missing and had everyone in the pub searching for me, verbally abused just
about everyone, collapsed in a chip shop. To name a few! I don't
want to be known as Lucy the pissed up joke, I laugh along with people
when they mention what I have done but I hate it and I really hate myself. The trouble is
I never know whether it will be the 5th drink or the 10th that will send
me into blackout but I always end up there, which is why I need to quit
completely.
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Join Date: May 2012
Location: Aussie
Posts: 382
I am a binge drinker as well Lucy,
you've come to the right place for support. I reccommend you have a look around the boards and participate in a "Class of" thread, those people will become your friends on these boards and will be able to provide you with support through your walk with sobriety.
you've come to the right place for support. I reccommend you have a look around the boards and participate in a "Class of" thread, those people will become your friends on these boards and will be able to provide you with support through your walk with sobriety.
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