regaining hope day 4
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regaining hope day 4
Today is finally day 4! I have literally not said that it is day 4 in like 5 years. Any other time I quit I just started taking Subutex and now that I have decided that Subutex isn't for me I am counting these days clean differently.
Although I haven't been able to eat in almost 4 days, I've been tired for what seems like forever, and I can't go 4 hours without advil, I have to say today I woke up feeling better! I still can't eat and I'm still tired but I woke up with a smile and I actually got some things accomplished already and its only 8 am!
I enter law school in a couple weeks and I finally realized if I am always chasing a high or always sick how can I ever obtain my dream life and job? I have read too many stories on here about people losing their dream jobs and losing everything, I need to put a stop to this before I get to that point. I really want to thank all those that told their stories because you showed me that drugs do not make us super people and we will lose it all if we don't stop. You all woke me up.
BTW For the first time in I can't remember I noticed the leaves on the trees. Such a simple thing, but I couldn't stop staring. Had I been so fogged up and out of it for so long that leaves on a tree look different?
I am so happy I found SR!
~ Maylie
Although I haven't been able to eat in almost 4 days, I've been tired for what seems like forever, and I can't go 4 hours without advil, I have to say today I woke up feeling better! I still can't eat and I'm still tired but I woke up with a smile and I actually got some things accomplished already and its only 8 am!
I enter law school in a couple weeks and I finally realized if I am always chasing a high or always sick how can I ever obtain my dream life and job? I have read too many stories on here about people losing their dream jobs and losing everything, I need to put a stop to this before I get to that point. I really want to thank all those that told their stories because you showed me that drugs do not make us super people and we will lose it all if we don't stop. You all woke me up.
BTW For the first time in I can't remember I noticed the leaves on the trees. Such a simple thing, but I couldn't stop staring. Had I been so fogged up and out of it for so long that leaves on a tree look different?
I am so happy I found SR!
~ Maylie
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Maylie,
Welcome! You're in good company here. First off, congrats on doing this. I want to tap you on the back and tell you great job! OK, so now that I have the platitudes going... Let me change directions for just a little bit. OK, so I'm known as the guy who tells it like it is. A little tough love.. But with 100% love in mind!
Every day from here on out gets better. Now, with that said - I want you to understand something VERY important! Recovery is not exactly linear. Yes, every day from here on out is going to be a little better. By this time next week your going to be 100% out of the physical W/D but you're likely to have some sleep issues for a while while your brain is adjusting itself back to normal. You may get a little depressed and you may even have a little bounce back but not to worry! It's normal and natural. I want to suggest to you that you have someone to talk to if things get rough periodically. There are three things that will speed your recovery! One of them isn't fun though : (
First: Nutrition! Eat the healthiest foods you possible can and skip all sodas, caffeine, just, etc! You've likely been starving your body of the nutrition it needs so you need to get good stuff back into it.
Second: Sleep!!!!! Sleep is a very powerful recovery tool. If you are unable to sleep well, go see your doctor! Believe me a doctor can help you with that.
THird: OK, here's the sucky part... Exercise! Yeah that's right I said it... I know that you feel like there is no friggin way to do it right now but you have to force yourself to do this. By exercising, you're forcing your brain to start producing all the chemical it stopped making when you were napalming it with opiods.
OK, "Warning Will Robinson" (Uh, you may be a little to young to understand that reference - I'm just showing my age there : )... .) In 3 weeks, a month, or two months - a not so funny thing happens to you. You're brain forgets about the hell and misery it went through during your W/D and you're old addict brain tells you it's OK to have one or two. Women have related to pregnancy in that the pain and suffering of the event goes away and you "forget". So you have to be on guard at all times not to slip even once. If you hang out with users - find new friends! If you have a dealer - lose the #! You have to remove yourself from the temptations!
So, now that the tough love talk is over... I'm so happy you're here and doing good. Just remember, sobriety is taking on life no matter what it throughs at you. Whether it be good or bad,
BTW, Here's a link I suggest you watch and LISTEN carefully to the words!!!!! This song is all about going through what you are now.
Depeche Mode-home - YouTube
Oh, and my all time favorite... THis is 20 minutes long but it is one of the most powerful stories I've ever know and there is a message in it for you. You'll know what the message is when the ring master says it : )
Short Film | The Butterfly Circus
God speed to you.
Welcome! You're in good company here. First off, congrats on doing this. I want to tap you on the back and tell you great job! OK, so now that I have the platitudes going... Let me change directions for just a little bit. OK, so I'm known as the guy who tells it like it is. A little tough love.. But with 100% love in mind!
Every day from here on out gets better. Now, with that said - I want you to understand something VERY important! Recovery is not exactly linear. Yes, every day from here on out is going to be a little better. By this time next week your going to be 100% out of the physical W/D but you're likely to have some sleep issues for a while while your brain is adjusting itself back to normal. You may get a little depressed and you may even have a little bounce back but not to worry! It's normal and natural. I want to suggest to you that you have someone to talk to if things get rough periodically. There are three things that will speed your recovery! One of them isn't fun though : (
First: Nutrition! Eat the healthiest foods you possible can and skip all sodas, caffeine, just, etc! You've likely been starving your body of the nutrition it needs so you need to get good stuff back into it.
Second: Sleep!!!!! Sleep is a very powerful recovery tool. If you are unable to sleep well, go see your doctor! Believe me a doctor can help you with that.
THird: OK, here's the sucky part... Exercise! Yeah that's right I said it... I know that you feel like there is no friggin way to do it right now but you have to force yourself to do this. By exercising, you're forcing your brain to start producing all the chemical it stopped making when you were napalming it with opiods.
OK, "Warning Will Robinson" (Uh, you may be a little to young to understand that reference - I'm just showing my age there : )... .) In 3 weeks, a month, or two months - a not so funny thing happens to you. You're brain forgets about the hell and misery it went through during your W/D and you're old addict brain tells you it's OK to have one or two. Women have related to pregnancy in that the pain and suffering of the event goes away and you "forget". So you have to be on guard at all times not to slip even once. If you hang out with users - find new friends! If you have a dealer - lose the #! You have to remove yourself from the temptations!
So, now that the tough love talk is over... I'm so happy you're here and doing good. Just remember, sobriety is taking on life no matter what it throughs at you. Whether it be good or bad,
BTW, Here's a link I suggest you watch and LISTEN carefully to the words!!!!! This song is all about going through what you are now.
Depeche Mode-home - YouTube
Oh, and my all time favorite... THis is 20 minutes long but it is one of the most powerful stories I've ever know and there is a message in it for you. You'll know what the message is when the ring master says it : )
Short Film | The Butterfly Circus
God speed to you.
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