Veritas1

I am home from my very first vacation where I didn't drink alcohol. I have never done that before. I always drank.

I even stayed in a hotel that had a free open bar for two hours each night. That was tough for me.

I thought about drinking alot.

Then I thought about drinking alotas in the amount I would consume, what type...even sat in the hotel bar thinking about drinking.

If I drink, I will drink way too much. It will start a cycle again. I wanted what everyone else was doing though. I thought I would be careful.

I finally sat and had some effective thought.

I left the hotel lounge, walked outside and called my good friend from AA.

I never did take that drink.

I was very curious to see how I would do on this trip. Would I drink? I always did. I never took a trip and did not drink.

I am a drinker.

For me to stay 5 days and 4 nights in a hotel and not drink was not my normal way of taking a trip.

Eating out in restaurants was a temptation also.

I said the very first night that the blue hawaiian drink looked good. My child who can read the drink menu reminded me that this drink contained vodka.

It's amazing that I am home and never took a drink. I realize that I am quite fragile however with regard to seeing booze for what it really is.

Thank God though, one night on the elevator a lady and I looked down at the cocktail/food reception area. She asked me if I had been yet. I said, no, I do better with coffee.

She said I was not missing anything...only gut rot and junk food.



I thought to myself...Thank you God...thank you for sending me that message of depth and weight.

It was what I needed to hear in that moment of worshipping junk that was no good for me.

She helped me to see it for what it really was.

Good to be home.

Hotel had SR blocked. I could not read for days, so it is good to be back here also on day 58.

CarolD

Welcome back....

I drink all the time I'm awake....I can relate ..however
I rotate Iced Tea with Water. Works really well for me

Glad you called your AA friend...smart thinking....

OklaBH

Incredible my friend!

CaiHong

Hi Veritas

I wondered where you had got to. Good for you for staying strong, it made me think about what time and place would entice me to drink.

SR was blocked!!! Why?

love
CaiHong

tomsteve

isnt it amazing the messages God gives us when we need it the most!!
greta to hear!

Veritas1

It seemed any site I tried was blocked for adult content at hotel business computer! I need my own laptop!

Veritas1

I did also pray and think about what God would have for me. My AA friend asked me to consider if it was God's will for me to drink. The answer was no.

I forgot to include that I did spend time quiet outside with God also.

This debating about whether I would drink or not continued for a long time.

Another good thing my AA friend reminded me was about what I was focusing on...in that as I focused on the free drink reception...the temptation was increasing...to change focus, think and do something else quickly.

I wonder if a drink...if people drinking in a hotel, or restaurant, etc., ...if it always will look good to me.

I think the real danger is that it looks so good to me.