I was doing so well, and then....
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Join Date: May 2012
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I was doing so well, and then....
I messed up - I had three drinks yesterday 
I don't know why yesterday of all the previous 7 days I let the AV take over but I did . I stopped at 3 thank goodness.
I'm trying not to beat myself up over so I can just get started again.
Day 1 *sigh*
What should I have learned from this relapse? What could I have done differently? I had a plan and I stuck to the plan to keep busy but the voice still won .
I feel like I should say sorry to those of you who followed my posts and encouraged me last week. I will dust myself off and do this again.
I don't know why yesterday of all the previous 7 days I let the AV take over but I did . I stopped at 3 thank goodness. I'm trying not to beat myself up over so I can just get started again.
Day 1 *sigh*
What should I have learned from this relapse? What could I have done differently? I had a plan and I stuck to the plan to keep busy but the voice still won .
I feel like I should say sorry to those of you who followed my posts and encouraged me last week. I will dust myself off and do this again.
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Many of us have false starts, Angela.
It's not the end of the race, it's just a momentary stumble near the start.
I tried to keep it simple - no matter how I was feeling, or what was happening around me, I had to accept that there was no excuse or rationalisation good enough for me to drink.
I had to accept drinking was not a viable option for me ever.
Use the support you'll find here and think of more stuff you can add yourself to what you've been doing so far.
You can do this
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It's not the end of the race, it's just a momentary stumble near the start.
I tried to keep it simple - no matter how I was feeling, or what was happening around me, I had to accept that there was no excuse or rationalisation good enough for me to drink.
I had to accept drinking was not a viable option for me ever.
Use the support you'll find here and think of more stuff you can add yourself to what you've been doing so far.
You can do this
D
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No need to say sorry, we've all been where you are now. Get straight back on the wagon, it's the very best way.
Just look at it as a firm reminder of what you want to achieve. When I relapsed I was numb with shock that I could have been so stupid. There's only one way to go now- forwards!!
We are all here to listen, help and support.
Day 1 is the start of the new you xxx
Just look at it as a firm reminder of what you want to achieve. When I relapsed I was numb with shock that I could have been so stupid. There's only one way to go now- forwards!!
We are all here to listen, help and support.
Day 1 is the start of the new you xxx
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Join Date: May 2012
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No need to say you're sorry when so many of us have been there. It's hard changing your old habits, which is something I know from recent experience. There's plenty of room up here on this wagon, so hop on. 
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I would say that you did very well to stop after three drinks . However, please do not allow this experience to let your AV talk you into the comfort zone that you can stop after 3, every time. This is where the danger lies. All the best !
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Originally Posted by Luling 
There's plenty of room up here on this wagon, so hop on.
And Angela - look at you! You STOPPED at 3! That is amazing. Every time I've let my guard down I've stopped at 3 too - 3 WEEKS!
Just keep fighting the good fight. And if I were you I wouldn't sit all day in the "Day 1 again" rut... I'd say - hey - I'm still going strong - just a little crosswind...
You're doing GOOD.
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What have you learned?
what could you have done differently?
You didn't stick to your plan completely, what went "wrong" in that plan?
Do you have a back-up plan?
Only you can answer these questions honestly. Have you started a journal?
Just start again!!
what could you have done differently?
You didn't stick to your plan completely, what went "wrong" in that plan?
Do you have a back-up plan?
Only you can answer these questions honestly. Have you started a journal?
Just start again!!
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Angela, I am right here with you. My AV won last night too, just when I was feeling so good. But, it was one day, it doesn't have to be two or three or more. Let's learn from our mistakes, turn this around, and do it again.
Reading your post inspired me to admit my mistake on here, just on my thread where I was reaching out for help last night. I was just going to pretend it didn't happen, and, probably, eventually stop coming on this site at all out of shame. Thank you for your honesty.
It's a new day, and a new start
Reading your post inspired me to admit my mistake on here, just on my thread where I was reaching out for help last night. I was just going to pretend it didn't happen, and, probably, eventually stop coming on this site at all out of shame. Thank you for your honesty.
It's a new day, and a new start
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Hi I'm new to this website but after reading this I wanted to share how crap I'm feeling. I was sober for 12 weeks, attending aa meetings daily, got a sponsor and felt like I was doing really well but relapsed for no reason at all last week and it was awful. After day 3 managed to put the drink down and have been feeling so guilty, full of shame but most of all totally confused as to why it happened?!
I have been sober again now for 6 days since and thrown myself back into my program but now have this underlying fear of relapsing again as can't believe how easily it happened.
Still very determined to beat this illness. Glad you feel the only way is up too!
I have been sober again now for 6 days since and thrown myself back into my program but now have this underlying fear of relapsing again as can't believe how easily it happened.
Still very determined to beat this illness. Glad you feel the only way is up too!
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Join Date: Oct 2011
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Hmmm wished I had let it go at 3 last week. That being said , not giving up , back up on my feet though feeling like crap. We can do this and a page from SB note above , I should have realized how in trouble I was in but the blinders went on , then the blindness come out. Luckily I get another chance....some don't , and for that I am grateful.
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Thank you for all of your positive comments! They really helped me to not beat myself up about it but look again to being successful TODAY. I ate healthy today. Didn't work out today but am booked for a 6am class tomorrow. I came straight home after work with only the thought of stopping at the liquor store crossing my mind once for a split second but it went quiet much more quickly than my last 'Day 1'
That's Progress!
Tonight I am just going to read and relax before bed.
Thank you again everyone!
That's Progress!
Tonight I am just going to read and relax before bed.
Thank you again everyone!
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