The Addictive Voice is Nuts!!
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The Addictive Voice is Nuts!!
So I'm sitting here on day two (again) and all in all it has been a pretty decent day. I constantly relapse and I'm always amazed how I manage to bounce back pretty quickly physically considering I drank 4 bottles of wine two days ago.
Anyways, I'm on a work out routine, worked out the past two days, worked, went to a meeting, feeling pretty good. I'm getting ready for bed and all of a sudden I get this sudden urge to get out of my pajamas in the middle of the night, go to the store, and get some wine to celebrate how "on track" I've been the past few days. I was SERIOUSLY entertaining the thought when I figured I'd get on here and post instead. That little sneaky jerk comes out of nowhere! Ok, thanks for rant. I'm putting myself to bed! On to day 3.
Anyways, I'm on a work out routine, worked out the past two days, worked, went to a meeting, feeling pretty good. I'm getting ready for bed and all of a sudden I get this sudden urge to get out of my pajamas in the middle of the night, go to the store, and get some wine to celebrate how "on track" I've been the past few days. I was SERIOUSLY entertaining the thought when I figured I'd get on here and post instead. That little sneaky jerk comes out of nowhere! Ok, thanks for rant. I'm putting myself to bed! On to day 3.
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So I'm sitting here on day two (again) and all in all it has been a pretty decent day. I constantly relapse and I'm always amazed how I manage to bounce back pretty quickly physically considering I drank 4 bottles of wine two days ago.
Anyways, I'm on a work out routine, worked out the past two days, worked, went to a meeting, feeling pretty good.
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I have a friend in my home group...That after 13 years in AA...Did his 5th step with a sponsor this past weekend...He couldn't wait to tell me. He finally "got it" and is moving on. It takes what it takes.
Inca, I'm amazed too how good I feel physically after only a day or two of not drinking. We should consider ourselves lucky, I think a lot of people struggle a lot longer than that, which I'm sure makes it even harder to abstain.
Anyway, you did the right thing posting on here, that voice is just that..a voice, who wants us to give it what it's used to, not what's good for us. Keep staying strong.
Anyway, you did the right thing posting on here, that voice is just that..a voice, who wants us to give it what it's used to, not what's good for us. Keep staying strong.
good to see ya feelin physically weller. my problem( and most alcoholics in AA) was centered in my mind, and that took work. that couldnt truly start until the obsession and compulsion to drink were gone, but it does happen!! dont give up 5 seconds before the miracle happens
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For me, getting sober wasn't hard but living sober was.
It's amazing how badly we have to be beaten before we give up. I could see the powerlessness and insanity in others but could not see it in myself.
16 yrs ago I was answering the AA hotline in our area and got a call from a suicidal broken woman with 2 kids. Last night I spoke for her 16th Anniversary.
All the best in your chosen recovery program Inca.
Bob R
It's amazing how badly we have to be beaten before we give up. I could see the powerlessness and insanity in others but could not see it in myself.
16 yrs ago I was answering the AA hotline in our area and got a call from a suicidal broken woman with 2 kids. Last night I spoke for her 16th Anniversary.
All the best in your chosen recovery program Inca.
Bob R
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I couldn't help but laugh when I read this post... Only because I totally get it... "and why shouldn't I drink because I've managed to do well for two days?" Doesn't make sense to anyone else, but it totally makes sense to us.
Good for you for coming here instead. I hope you had a great sleep and day 3 is a breeze!
Good for you for coming here instead. I hope you had a great sleep and day 3 is a breeze!
I get it-today is day 2 for me -even after a nightmare of a weekend my mind is already wondering "hmmm would drinking JUST on saturday be THAT big a deal?" Sadly..I know its simply suicide for me
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I have people in my AA home group that have experienced the same thing. Apparently for some it takes a wile to 'get it'. What they all have in common is that they don't quit on themselves, they stay in recovery, no matter what, until they are free from alcohol.
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