Want/need
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Join Date: May 2012
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Want/need
I WANT to stay, help my AH through his addiction
I NEED to go to protect myself and my son
I WANT to live out my dreams, of a happy family, 2 little babies and a loving husband
I NEED to let go of those dreams and make new ones
I WANT to ingore and deny the truth of my husbands addiction
I NEED to realize that this man, who is gentle, kind, and a loving father- has a very strong addiction to herion
I WANT to believe that our life can resume in only a few weeks of being clean
I NEED to always remember that recovery takes time, and a lot of work
I WANT to believe when he tells me that this is it this time
I NEED to accept that until he completely surrenders himself, this will not be it for him
I WANT to cling to him, for him to tell me everything will be ok
I NEED to find my own strength, without him
I NEED to go to protect myself and my son
I WANT to live out my dreams, of a happy family, 2 little babies and a loving husband
I NEED to let go of those dreams and make new ones
I WANT to ingore and deny the truth of my husbands addiction
I NEED to realize that this man, who is gentle, kind, and a loving father- has a very strong addiction to herion
I WANT to believe that our life can resume in only a few weeks of being clean
I NEED to always remember that recovery takes time, and a lot of work
I WANT to believe when he tells me that this is it this time
I NEED to accept that until he completely surrenders himself, this will not be it for him
I WANT to cling to him, for him to tell me everything will be ok
I NEED to find my own strength, without him
Clever Yak
Join Date: Jan 2009
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Even though it hurts, you're doing the right thing, especially for your son. Being the child of a [deceased] heroin addict myself, I can tell you with certainty that you ARE doing the right thing. I wish I had had a guardian that cared about me enough to do that when I was younger. Kudos to you
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Join Date: Jan 2012
Location: Los Angeles
Posts: 271
Good for you. It feels strange and uncomfortable taking care of yourself when you haven't done it in a long time if ever. So this is a good uncomfortable. It will pass just sit with it...kinda like getting your eyebrows plucked/waxed...you know you gotta do it, don't want to, it hurts, it stings, your skin is irritated, then all calms down and you look faboulous.
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