I guess it's time to start
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I guess it's time to start
I've only been drinking two years, but I've known for a while that I have a problem. I'm not sure why I haven't tried to quit before now - I think I felt like it wasn't bad enough yet, and why not keep going and have a bit of fun until I reach my "bottom"?
Except it really isn't fun anymore. Just last night I called my ex, drunk and begging. I was walking too fast and fell over, rather comically, and could barely get up in the middle of the street, in front of hundreds of people. The memory shames me so much, and I don't even remember what I did after or how I got home...
This is happening about 4-5 times a week now. Usually I'm home so I don't embarrass myself too much, or I drink a little less than that.
I don't want this to happen anymore. I'm done drinking. I have no self control.
I'm 20, my name is Jenny.
Except it really isn't fun anymore. Just last night I called my ex, drunk and begging. I was walking too fast and fell over, rather comically, and could barely get up in the middle of the street, in front of hundreds of people. The memory shames me so much, and I don't even remember what I did after or how I got home...
This is happening about 4-5 times a week now. Usually I'm home so I don't embarrass myself too much, or I drink a little less than that.
I don't want this to happen anymore. I'm done drinking. I have no self control.
I'm 20, my name is Jenny.
Welcome Jenny!
I'm glad you're ready for a change - it really isn't fun when alcohol starts running our lives. Take heart, though, because you're not alone - lots of us have been there and found a way out.:ghug3
This is a great place - we're here for ya!
I'm glad you're ready for a change - it really isn't fun when alcohol starts running our lives. Take heart, though, because you're not alone - lots of us have been there and found a way out.:ghug3
This is a great place - we're here for ya!
Welcome Jenny, this is a great start; you will also find fellowship from the welcoming and helpful folks in AA. You've taken a great step; It's not what we've lost that tells us we need help, but our level of desperation. You are right, when it's not fun but problems, the fun will return in your recovery.
Welcome Jenny --
Drinking wasn't much fun for me anymore either at the time that I quit. Unfortunately, people that drink like you and I have terribly selective memory. It gets pretty easy to forget why you don't want to drink.
I think if you can stay quit then you'll be in great shape! I got sober one year ago at 25, so I'm not terribly old, but I still wish I would have sobered up sooner. I missed out on some of the best years of my life because I was trashed constantly.
Best of luck in your sobriety.
Drinking wasn't much fun for me anymore either at the time that I quit. Unfortunately, people that drink like you and I have terribly selective memory. It gets pretty easy to forget why you don't want to drink.
I think if you can stay quit then you'll be in great shape! I got sober one year ago at 25, so I'm not terribly old, but I still wish I would have sobered up sooner. I missed out on some of the best years of my life because I was trashed constantly.
Best of luck in your sobriety.
Hello Jenny,
I'm 28 now and have finally accepted that I can't drink and feel better for it. I knew at your age I had a problem with it though, good on you for seeking some advice and searching now.
I have found there to be lots of wisdom and kind advice here.
Best wishes
I'm 28 now and have finally accepted that I can't drink and feel better for it. I knew at your age I had a problem with it though, good on you for seeking some advice and searching now.
I have found there to be lots of wisdom and kind advice here.
Best wishes
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Thank you, for the warm welcome! I've been lurking for a few weeks now, and just reading has offered me a lot of great advice.
Truly, waking up in the morning knowing what you did or wondering what happened last night... has to be one of the worst feelings in the world. I hope I never have that again.
I know I drink to escape. I just don't understand why I keep doing it, when it makes everything worse. I can't stop when I'm tipsy, I just keep going. I end up crying and feel more upset than I did sober. Yet I still do it... it's a mystery.
Truly, waking up in the morning knowing what you did or wondering what happened last night... has to be one of the worst feelings in the world. I hope I never have that again.
I know I drink to escape. I just don't understand why I keep doing it, when it makes everything worse. I can't stop when I'm tipsy, I just keep going. I end up crying and feel more upset than I did sober. Yet I still do it... it's a mystery.
- Normal people have an off switch. It turns off their desire for alcohol when they get to a certain point-
- Some people are born with no off switch- just in the same way some people are born with other body parts missing.
- Some people have an off switch but it wears out due to to much drinking and no longer functions.
Along with the above alcohol is addictive- which means we keep using inspite of negative consequences in our lives.
Once the mayhem starts it will only get worse.
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