One More Time
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Join Date: Feb 2008
Location: 49 degrees north
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One More Time
Hello,
I have not visited or posted in a couple of years. I wish I were writing this because all is just wonderful.
It's not. I was just released after a 21 day treatment. Depression and alcohol dependence.
It is time to slay the beast for good. Thought I could be "normal." Yeah, right. While I wasn't getting drunk, I was alcohol dependent. I am an alcoholic.
No more "thinking." Nope. Not smart.
I have missed y'all...
warren
I have not visited or posted in a couple of years. I wish I were writing this because all is just wonderful.
It's not. I was just released after a 21 day treatment. Depression and alcohol dependence.
It is time to slay the beast for good. Thought I could be "normal." Yeah, right. While I wasn't getting drunk, I was alcohol dependent. I am an alcoholic.
No more "thinking." Nope. Not smart.
I have missed y'all...
warren
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Join Date: Jul 2009
Location: In the Slowlane
Posts: 878
Hi Warren, Welcome back. I can relate to thinking I was normal with drinking and coping but found out the hard way that is not the case. How humbling is that? And that is just what I needed. There is a sentence in the big book Im sure you have read before but it seems after going out after a substantial amount of time it holds much meaning.
"The idea that somehow someday he will be able to control and enjoy his drinking is the great obsession of every abnormal drinker"
We that have the disease do on some level have this obsessive idea even if on a subconcious level. Then came my bottom and glad that is done I hope you have turned the corner as well.
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"The idea that somehow someday he will be able to control and enjoy his drinking is the great obsession of every abnormal drinker"
We that have the disease do on some level have this obsessive idea even if on a subconcious level. Then came my bottom and glad that is done I hope you have turned the corner as well.
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Join Date: Feb 2008
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All,
Thank you so much for the warm welcome. I am a little chargrined by my absence in both SR and AA. I became a little too confident, I guess, and took my eye off the dragon.
The past couple of years have been brutal. Lots of grief and loss. In some respects, it continues. More as I post.
This disease does not stand still. I imagine many of my old friends have suffered as I have. It is good to see some familiar faces who have remained on the sunny side of the street.
I hope to be here on most days. Again, thank you!
warren
Hang in there - things are going to get better.
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Join Date: Dec 2010
Location: San Diego
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Well, it's nice to meet you, though I wish it were under different circumstances.
But now you're here, safe and sound. Pull up a chair by the fire, take your boots off, and worry no more, because you never need to go back to that cold dark place again. That's an incredibly important lesson for me to hear. You have a lot to offer everyone.
But now you're here, safe and sound. Pull up a chair by the fire, take your boots off, and worry no more, because you never need to go back to that cold dark place again. That's an incredibly important lesson for me to hear. You have a lot to offer everyone.
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So great to be welcomed. I'm actually doing quite well. I have few cravings. I wish I could say the same about nicotine. Those cravings are killing me!!
I was just released from a 21 day inpatient program (self admitted) and am attending an 8 week outpatient program 100 miles from home in rural Idaho.
I prefer to believe that those of us who have relapsed have the advantage of knowing for certain that we are not and never will be "normal." I'm convinced...
I hope to be a positive force here. I have no space in my head to rent to negativity. And they say that one can never climb back in the womb... I need this place.
warren
I was just released from a 21 day inpatient program (self admitted) and am attending an 8 week outpatient program 100 miles from home in rural Idaho.
I prefer to believe that those of us who have relapsed have the advantage of knowing for certain that we are not and never will be "normal." I'm convinced...
I hope to be a positive force here. I have no space in my head to rent to negativity. And they say that one can never climb back in the womb... I need this place.
warren
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