cracked

Hi all,
I am coming to the end of my day 1. Feeling a little tired and out of it, but mostly just depressed and anxious. I don't like feeling feelings, which I guess helps explain why I have a drinking problem. Sitting here facing how I feel makes me feel so trapped, like I want to run away but I have nowhere to go anymore. I don't know if that makes any sense.

Anyway, just feeling a little down tonight, but I'm still committed to not drinking. I'm hoping it's true that stopping is actually going to help me move forward instead of being stuck in the bad feelings forever.

EmeraldRose

Keep Swimming.....

Dazee

It gets better. I read on one of your posts that you notice you felt medication worked better w/o alcohol. That has been my experience too. Hang in there

PoppiesInJuly

Good job getting through your first day!
I felt the same way as you on day 1. I am
only on day 3 and already feeling much better.

I dealt with the anxiety and "feeling" on the
first day by watching movies and enjoying
some comfort snacks until I was absolutely
so tired that I had to go to bed. I did have
to deal with some of the feelings while I was
trying to sleep, but I actually ended up
working through some things, so It wasn't
all bad.

If you can't sleep and you need to go somewhere
for support, you can always come here. This
place has been a godsend for my first few days.

Good luck! You can do it.

Poppies

FlyerFan

Keep fighting it.

Hevyn

Cracked, It will end up being the best thing you could possibly do for yourself. It just feels strange in the beginning. I was like an alien for a few months.

We're so used to numbing ourselves - reality is a bit harsh at first. Be kind and patient with yourself as you heal. We promise it will get better. Proud of you for getting through that first difficult day!

artsoul

It really will get better, cracked. I did pretty much what Poppies did for the first couple days: hang out here, watch TV and eat. I kept things simple and was pleased to find that my anxiety (the kind we live with every day while drinking) really got better after a couple days.

Getting through the first few days isn't fun, but it's SO worth it.....

cracked

Thanks everyone. Improving my anxiety is one of the main things I'm looking forward to in recovery. I just need to push through and stick with it. It feels sooo weird!

IndaMiricale

Yes and its a great weird feeling.

I was in a wasted state for my entire adult life. And now at 40 sober and loving the new life. Hang in there and just dont pick up that drink.

Look forward to seeing your days add up.

ElegantlyWasted

I so get it. I liked to escape into lala land feel good and more or less pass out. Congrats on day 1 and keep it rollin.

Sparkydog

Days turn into weeks then months, next thing you know its a lifestyle, keep at it, it will get easier everyday.

Dee74

^ What sparky said

keep at it Cracked

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Luckyv2

Hey Cracked that sounds like me when I finally got to the end. I had burned all the Bridges that I came across and there was no where left for me to go except for one direction. That was going UP! So yeah, we hit the end of the barrel. That is quite alright now we can get to the top!

Keep the Faith Man!

instant

It will get better as long as you can hang in there, ignore the part of you that wants to chuck sobriety