Sunny27

I ticked most boxes. If there was ever any doubt, there isn't now.

Two weeks for me today and I am glad to be slowly distancing myself from my old life, that is detailed pretty well here:

A Specialist

Innerchild

Thanks for posting I love this. I could relate to it very much.

pangur

Perhaps I'm losing my mind, perhaps I lost it long ago, but did anyone experience the two inner conflicting voices when answering that in your mind? It's like a devil on one shoulder telling you to stop snitching every time your rational self says "yes" as an answer. I honestly don't know whether to laugh or cry!

Sunny27

I read it knowing I was going to keep saying yes, i'd have been shocked if I hadn't lol

The only one that got me was the one about spending money on booze and defaulting on food/rent/bills. I was always able to do all of them, not because I am loaded (total opposite) but wine is so cheap. It is easy to cheaply.

It has really reinforced that YES I am an addict - no matter how much I hate the word - and just because I had an easy time stopping with no real withdrawal symptoms doesn't mean I am ok to crack open a bottle and have a glass of wine.

I was living in total denial that my consumption was not excessive and not just a bit more than my friends (I know most of them didn't drink a bottle of wine at night out of boredom/loneliness/because i was happy/excited - insert any emotion here really).

I am starting to feel reborn and acceptance is a part of that. Accepting my addiction for what it really is!

IndaMiricale

Sunny

Fantastic on coming to terms of what you are and what now you can become. Its been a pleasure to get to know you a little in chat.

Keep coming and growing your doing great .

Good love, Inda

Sunny27

Thank Inda so much.

It can only get better. This is my new life. Sober.

Will see you in chat

xx

sugarbear1

I like the statement about "the recovery rate of rehab on its own is zero" (article on The Modern Approach to Treating Alcoholism & Addiction)

TatsX

Well done Sunny..I think today is day 15 for me, not really counting, one day at a time. My wife leaves tuesday for 3 days w/our oldest, a little worried about the boredome/lonely factor. I usually try to keep busy when she is gone by playing drums along with my ipod, but the stupid thing froze yesterday. Have to find another way if I can't fix it

artsoul

Great article, Sunny!

gaffo

Thank you Sunny.

I'm at 76 days now since I just admitted to myself that it was time to quit. It's not easy but it sure is simpler than the boozy life. That article had me down, except for the paying bills part. I think paying the bills and getting to work are the last big lines of defense against quitting for a lot of us. "High functioning" anyone?

Sunny27

Yes, that is the only one that got me as well. I also haven't had friends mention concern at my drinking but that is because they also drink and didn't know how much I was drinking after I left them and went home.

I was cleaning out under my sink earlier and found an empty bottle of wine, empty quarter bottle of wine and a small empty bottle of vodka. I'd put them there so my flatmate wouldn't see them in the bin over the past few months.

I had known they were hidden there but for some reason didn't want to see them. I put them out in the bin with a smile on my face knowing that is the last of the remnants of my old life.

Sunny xx

isabella1bella

Sunny thank you for this ... gr8 article to put things into perspective