ClosetAlchie

Day six of sobriety today, and I think the withdrawal is finally over. I woke up today and for the first time felt truly clear-headed - I didn't need alcohol or Benadryl or anything else to get to sleep last night! The fog is finally lifting, and I realized something - that I haven't gone more than two days without a drink since 2005... it took sobriety to realize how long and how hard I've been drinking! I had been chasing that 'next drink' for so long I had forgotten about how many I've taken. And besides the physical damage to my body and the emotional damage to those close to me, I can't begin to imagine how much money I've thrown at this thing.

I have gone to three meetings now, and although at first I kinda thought 'well I'm not as bad as these guys so maybe I don't need AA' now I'm thinking that I should be thankful to be in a program before it gets that bad.

whitehorses

WELL DONE YOU!!
Keep going, you have got the hardest part behind you, like me, now it's the long haul.

Itchy

Good for you! I did the same thing at meetings, and I am sure some looked at me and thought that they weren't as bad as me yet. I have heard it said that medically, an alcoholic is anybody who drinks more than their Doctor. Seriously though good on ya! I hated AA my first meeting but then found a wonderful home group that worked for me. Keep posting as you can really help others with your posts daily. You have me already!