90 Days....
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Join Date: Mar 2011
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90 Days....
Okay, so I was thinking my 90 days was tomorrow... but I went to the Grapevine site (they have a sobriety calculator) and put in my sobriety date... and it says today is day 90! I guess I was thinking in terms of full months... but people seem to celebrate 30/60/90 days... anyway I can't believe I'm here! Today will also be my 60th day in a row that I've gone to a meeting.
Nothing could have helped me more (well, my sponsor is the one that really recommended I do 90 meetings in 90 days... and she has been a really great driving force for me)... I've gotten 90 days sober before, but never while working the program.
Just two days ago I had a little bit of a breakthrough moment... I had an argument with my boyfriend and headed to a meeting... on the way I started crying, I was crabby, etc... but it dawned on me that I was FEELING SOMETHING REAL. All along I have been "feeling," but it's been like there's a barrier between me and my emotions. I didn't realize alcohol had done that to me.
Anyway, I feel like I'm getting "me" back. Things aren't perfect, but I am so grateful to be sober and HERE. This site has also helped me... reading mostly, and posting some... I'm grateful to have that too.
I just like the dancing banana so here it is.
Nothing could have helped me more (well, my sponsor is the one that really recommended I do 90 meetings in 90 days... and she has been a really great driving force for me)... I've gotten 90 days sober before, but never while working the program.
Just two days ago I had a little bit of a breakthrough moment... I had an argument with my boyfriend and headed to a meeting... on the way I started crying, I was crabby, etc... but it dawned on me that I was FEELING SOMETHING REAL. All along I have been "feeling," but it's been like there's a barrier between me and my emotions. I didn't realize alcohol had done that to me.
Anyway, I feel like I'm getting "me" back. Things aren't perfect, but I am so grateful to be sober and HERE. This site has also helped me... reading mostly, and posting some... I'm grateful to have that too.
I just like the dancing banana so here it is.
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Join Date: Apr 2011
Location: California
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Congratulations!!!!! Wow, I can totally relate to the barrier feeling between me and my real emotions when alcohol was in the picture. It's gone now - it was scary at first, but now I know any tears I cry are genuine and that they heal the situation.
I also love the dancing banana!!!
I also love the dancing banana!!!
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Join Date: Jun 2011
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Congrats, this is huge and you should be so proud of yourself. 
I too was confused about my days sober... I put a counter on my phone and I guess it starts counting on the day I stopped drinking, whereas I was starting to count it from the first day I had nothing to drink... so I was a day behind my counter. The way I look at it is is today is my ninth day not drinking. Although I had a drink 9 days ago if that makes sense. So it's not my ninth day sober (yet... I guess at 12:01 after midnight it will be, ha ha). I am kinda anal about those things so I too was confused but I just go with the counter.
Anyway way to go, yay! :-)
I too was confused about my days sober... I put a counter on my phone and I guess it starts counting on the day I stopped drinking, whereas I was starting to count it from the first day I had nothing to drink... so I was a day behind my counter. The way I look at it is is today is my ninth day not drinking. Although I had a drink 9 days ago if that makes sense. So it's not my ninth day sober (yet... I guess at 12:01 after midnight it will be, ha ha). I am kinda anal about those things so I too was confused but I just go with the counter.
Anyway way to go, yay! :-)
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Join Date: Jan 2008
Location: KC missouri
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playing guitar or listening to music made me unconfy because I was dealing with feelings that I numbed myself too. I numbed good or bad. It is great you cried and delt with that without drinking. It gets easier. you get more emotionally mature. What that means is you will still cry but the hurt won't be so deep and devistating.
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